Hey there
guess what
you are going to make it
keep moving forward
keep pushing through
if you were getting chased by a bear you wouldn't stop
even if you were tired
you would keep going
so even though I know its hard
even though it *****
even though it feels like everything is wrong
I know that it is going to  be okay eventually
it is okay to be sad
it is okay to feel lonely
it is okay to cry
but don't unpack and live there
there are so many lovely things in this world
I would hate for you to miss all of it
so take a second
look outside
take a few deep breaths
and just be grateful that we have what we have
even though life may **** sometimes
it is all going to be alright
keep fighting.

I am going insane
I am drowning in myself
I am drowning in this car
Watching the water run down the windows
Tears run down my cheeks
I fit right in
Pretty rainbow wax mixing into a blob
It's like my head
It started out pretty but now it's mixed
Two deaths one week
They took their lives
Two deaths one week
Why do I want to be a third
I don't really
My head is just mixed
I need to get out of this car wash
I need to get out of my brain.

Family Christmas party
Food laugh love
I feel this until I don't
I'm hiding in the bathroom
Head is pounding
Eyes lost
I just need to get out of here
But I can't
Why come to a party when you just say hi and leave?
It's the medicine talking
I don't even know
I just feel like death would be best
But I know it won't be
And that's what hurts the most.
I'm stuck between living and dying and it makes the simplest things seem so complex.

"The most beautiful part of your body
is where it's headed. & remember;
Loneliness is still time spent with the world."
Ocean vuong

It's a tough time for dreamers
But

"No one becomes an artist unless they have to."
Janet Fitch

An effect I thought I was impervious to

Butterflies
Uncertainty
Insecurity

My soul lingers on my skin
Like smoke on walls

I'm transparent.

Many men have come with their ice picks
Desperately chipping away at the cold encasing my heart
And here you are

A wildfire.
Restless and tactful
Every scar I have earned
My armor
In ashes.
I'm terrified
vulnerable
And

yours..

Our wavelengths aren't cohesive.
I think in terms of art, poetry and music
I belong with an artist.
And when the world's on fire we'll make it seem beautiful.