“Does he make you laugh?”
I closed my eyes as his loving stare flashed in my mind.
*“He doesn’t make me cry.”

We're born in a hospital,then we learn in a school and then work till we die let me translate,how your born into a factory and they save the date,you get to crawling then you walking straight,then your put into school with no debate,they got u paying for college nd u flying upstate,paying to be programed couldn't see it coming like a blind date,America the United slave states, 4$ milk 100$ shoes we robots nd they making  many updates,we all human beings we just got different traits,we all sinners still got different fates,we all eating just different plates,we all can handle it just got different weights,life a movie with different rates,this is what a corrupted world creates,nd yea I had a dream like Martin Luther king,but I was dreaming in a nightmare,so what was I suppose to,I don't even a clue,do wateva for money we calling for a shot like we got the flu,we in the mix like beef stew,here Bruh I need a peer review

We enslaved by the mind why you think they called brain cells,yea it's eight planets so I'm guessing that it's more hells,they aiming for me wit slow bullets call em turtle shells,yea I got a quarter so I'm looking for the wishing wells,say Ima die early man I'm calling that them fairy tales,rapping like I'm casting spells,only taking W's ion really take no L's,and if I did it's a lesson,if I learned it's a blessing,living life like I'm just testing,my opponents they just guessing,changing things like I'm the setting,on the path like I'm just destined,out the box I'm never checking,gods gift I come from heaven,starting things like Armageddon,yea my voice  a deadly weapon,asking me a who you threating,officer like why sweating,I want the top like I'm the heading,no conclusion,I do this for my brothers  the ones that's on the street and sometimes don't even got they mothers,using drugs as they covers,bussing guns with no rubbers,killing each other like wild lovers life is like a war x2 so what you stand for,is it  them Jordan's on your feet,or that song that's on the radio and you only like the beat,this worlds a trick and not a treat,we don't live by they rules so they trying say we cheat,then they **** us with that heat,give our movas the receipt,and it's going stop we just gotta see,you don't gotta be foreign,washing up on the shoring,when I see make up on women ,catch  Z's like I'm snoring,expand the mind like we touring,clean up our mess like we choring,treat ignorance like it's boring

They picked me like duck duck goose it,The new leader is now music,but they abuse it,boundle of oranges in my mind let me juice it,the hatred let me reduce it,tag with the devil but whose it,he been looking for me for a while, im the needle in the pile,so all I do is smile,pick up my pen I'm feeling hostile, give me one foot of paper I go the whole mile,ima build a new nation with my artistic style,one law be free,my pen burning this paper third degree,my flow sick hepatitis b,success called but no caller id,life a game with no referee,you sitting on the bench I gotta disagree,don't wait till the last quarter to score,in the first you should have went to war,no team mate to be accounted for,I speak up your the Lion without the roar,they waiting for us like a trap door,I may not be who you sent for ,but I got food for thought like a grocery store,

One day, you’ll be driving down the road, windows down, your favorite song blasting, at 3 in the morning 
or 
you’ll be sitting on the beach, watching the sun kiss the horizon, at 7 in the evening,
when you realize how happy you are. That everything in the world is right & you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be.
You’ll wonder why you ever thought of giving up on yourself. Don’t give up on your happiness. Tough times come, but they’ll eventually go. Believe in your happiness, believe that it’ll come, even if it doesn’t seem that way... Never lose your faith & never lose sight on love

I thought I knew what love was. 
I thought Love was late night texts and nose kisses
 and wanting to see them all the time.
 Love was face timing and presents & poems 
and thinking about them at night.
 I thought that was love.
Then I met her.
 Suddenly, love was her putting the stars in my sky,
 & her being the first thing on my mind in the morning
and looking forward to seeing her for even a jus a moment.
Love turned into memorizing the curve of her lips or her tongue through her teeth when she smiles and trying hard just to make her laugh because I loved the sound of it
and finding any excuse to touch her
Love wasn't held in any object,
 it was the way she got upset when I didn't sit by her 
Love wasnt captured in jus a song,
 it was the glint in her eyes when she smiled at me. 
Love wasnt kissing or hugging or cuddling,
 it was just feeling her warmth next to me, even when we're apart 
it was the way I looked at her when she was concentrating on something, 
it was the way I wanted to be perfect for her & her for me, even though she liked me the way I was. Love is me being tough on her to be where I know she wants to be, changing her to be a Better person for her even though I love her jus the way she is
& that’s what love was.
& this is what love is
She taught me what love was.. & She taught me what love is....

I thought I stopped loving her... I really thought I did. But realized you never really stop loving your first love, do you? I mean, she’ll always have a piece of my heart, she’ll have it because I was blushing & my heart was stumbling over its feet and I let her have it. I felt the stupid butterflies in my stomach and I let her take them. I let her take it because I mean, she was beautiful and she was everything I wanted. But her stupid smile was a gunshot that wrecked the glass house inside my chest and her voice, a voice I’m starting to finally forget & I’m scared because I don’t want to forget, I don’t, but it was a painkiller that only worked halfway and left the rest of the pain to rot away. Her voice was a song that made me feel like everything will be alright someday. Her voice is a song that I want to memorize again and god, a song so fine & I just want to hear it one more time..

Sometimes you meet someone, and it’s so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another or you’re in love or you’re partners in crime. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don’t know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but it DEFINITELY makes me believe in something...

Surviving not living

I saw you at the bus stop,
hair flowing with the wind.
sounding like a beautiful song,
a queen without her king.

I said Hello, & you said Hi,
I knew it was love at very first sight.
We just stared into each other's eyes,
& we didn't wanna ever say goodbye.

I fell for you when you laughed at my stupid jokes, this became more than just a little hope. I missed you when we didn't talk on the phone, I knew you were perfect, you had a beautiful soul.

But now you got me writing all these silly little poems,
& in thought of you just forever hoping,
that you miss me too the way that I do u,
because it seems the words "I love you" are no longer true.

Maybe I'll call you, Maybe I won't,
this can't be real, it's just a dream.
It's nothing but a fantasy, Love isn't that easy or what it seems.

What happened to everything I grew to love about you? Your voice used to make my heart drop.. Now I'm starting to regret ever  saying hello to you that day at
the Bus stop..