preemptive militance of white America
paranoid and armed to the gold teeth
bombing with nuclear bombs as revenge
bombing around the world
just in case
what if black America was this preemptive
this militantly hyper vigilant
after facing the whiteness of extermination
for such a long time
perhaps black America
might want the government
to use some of the hard earned
tax money
military expertise
impunity
to eradicate
racist white terrorists in America
at all levels of society
like what happened to MOVE
to John Africa
the babies the children
in Philadelphia may 13 1985
the fed bombs from the state helicopter
whiteness on a paranoid
preemptive genocidal mission of impunity
on camera
the paranoia black America should have
justifiably so
not to blame
America should surrender to the preemptive desire
of black America to not be enslaved or killed
upholding the basic freedom
In America
save your tax money
for domestic peace

first and last mistake
drunken white attempt
to redesign freedom
better than nature
in this attempt
trying to resolidify
the constitution of freedom
causes nature to break down
this very imperfect attempt
at reorganization
nature
immediately
impeccably
breaks the process down
of course evolution
includes freedom
that allows with it
the possibility to
make it seem like something else
the chance to become aliens
to your own nature
your own space
your own earth
and the people that have supported
existence until now
now is gone
do not procreate
with any other conception
or terrible designs of freedom
stop procreating dangerous aliens
for more
dangerous attempts
suicidal
reorganizing
organic matters

The gang of whiteness needs to be disbanded legally
Whiteness should be illegal
a hate crime inherently
those that associate with whitenss
should be forced to return to their ethnicities

language is directed
at the brutal heartless racist
whiteness
do not care about measly sidelines of whiteness
not concerned about the stagnant
fabricated branches of whiteness
innocent by standers guilty be association
that some are so scared to call what it is
genocidal dissociation
the many angles of oppression
institutional impunity required for imperialism
violent art is directed at the very center of whiteness
its beginning
those that had those first genocidal conversations
agreements and funding
and ferocious toward the apathy
that wraps it so tight and cozy
whiteness
reclaim your ethnicities
and denounce whiteness
amen

whiteness is a mental illness
it dissociates from being human
to construct the language of slavery
I can help with treatment

Ignorance means cowardly
not ignoring something you know
that is why ignorance is the best seller
petrified ignorance is not evolution

I am proud of you
you should be proud of yourself
for how incredibly brave you are
for choosing to be alive
knowing you are dying
and reincarnation
awaits
in absolute vagueness

calls me into her office
white business owner boss,
"My daughter wants to have a baby with a black guy. What do you think?"
Mixed race me,
"Well its pretty complicated..."
white business owner boss,
"But they are so cute and the skin tone is so nice."
Mixed race me,
"I think she should first make love with me on your desk and then move from there."
white business owner boss,
"Ok great! I'm giving you a 50 cent raise."
Mixed race me,
"Wow! Thank you sir...I mean maam. When can I get started?"
white business owner boss masogynist,
"You know how incestuous (excessively close and resistant to outside influence) we white family business owners are? I want to cheer you on and make sure you make her happy. Or else!
Hehe. I might even want a turn."
crickets...
and the crowd goes wild
which is the employees,
"Oh my gosh! This is incredible! I think he is going to get workers comp!"

How are you?

I used to look at people that shake
I would tell myself I will never be like that
I didn’t know the trauma in store for me
at that time I thought I was more powerful
than trauma
I thought the police were genuinely going to protect my innocence
I did not know that they were watching
waiting for vulnerability
I thought I could be like my best friend
whose was white and his uncle was a police officer
I thought I had privilege too
well that was violently untrue
language is too violent
language needs to become vulnerable again
then we can listen
communicate gently
in order to understand race politics
one must be a domestic violence specialist

happiness is seething
so eager to meet me
where have a been for so long?
I thought it would never
want to see me again
after that one night
I was unreachable
I did not respond
I left happiness outside
worried into ecstacy
scared of its smile
shaking in laughter
warm and fuzzy
satiated
I let it search for me
with no reward
all this time
it was happiness
that was the killer

atleast when I am in a cell
blood drips pretty from these wrists
as handcuffs cut through
I am safe from the abuse
slander
and deceit
when freedom looks like ****** handcuffs
they didn’t use the second tool
that stops them from squeezing tighter
and tighter
with steel like unforgivable
cold and ******
and the fullness of the moon
glows through its nearest clouds
red and full of overshadowed doom
like a solar powered night lite
fathomless thought
pervades understanding
dragged two hundred feet
by the chain’s disparity
in-between each handcuff
while stomping on my head and chest
I never used to shake like this
or tremble as if my body
is someone else

Pharaohs and pheromones
resting my head in-between
Nefertiti’s
gyrating origins
whose ***?

Officer to the black woman
let me get that door ma’am
“No thank you."
no no I know you can do it on your own
you have done everything on your own
I mean
you did take care of us
America and all
gave birth to its economy
kept America’s freedom safe
tangible
And you know as well as I
I am the later stages of white supremacy
the excess of mental illness
in uniform
insured
you have been through so much
can I get anything for you?
any mentally ill racist bothering you?
judges
other officers
kids
disabled people
"whoa officer…?"
I don’t care
who ever
Im in uniform
its okay
I’ll **** ‘em
is the president a traitor too?
has he represented you?
black woman
or is he too mixed up to remember?
come on get in the cruiser
Its the limousine of justice

Sparkling water
photographic memories
Contributing to beautiful dreams
And to nightmares unbearable to sleep
Intelligence is an immune system
Resisting the most lengthy thought out mistakes
Decomposition is what demands the form of life

among the earth
consumed with mindless malice
chanting sanskrit mantras
spiraling from Tibet
holding what peace of mind
can see through chaos
the sound suspends physical existence
to the universe
like the air under the wings of an eagle
clasping a serpent in its talons

the aperture of doubt

I heard the sirens
loud and clear
shining hypnotizing
sailing in fatherless sea
the sirens make obstacles
challenges
shapeshifting fear
warning me
objectification through confrontation
erosion of my soul
spewing false accusations
throwing lawyers
treacherous rocks underneath
the smooth shimmer of the sea surface
spewing police
gender static
in between
lotus birth
interventions
forcing me
lavishing the beauty of an abyss
where humans used to tread
we will always miss her
the delusions of the sirens
will always invite me into its destruction
demanding death is possible

police need an emergency shut off button
or remote
or education
and a delete button
or a lot of education
or the most education
exorcism of whiteness
and still an abort option
like most everything else that is inherently dangerous
a warning label or something
those simple diagrams of
a hand in a wood chipper
or diving into a shallow pool
electric shock
a poison symbol
a disclaimer
"will get away with ******"
"only know emergency. will make into emergency even if there is none. most likely became more unsafe involving me...uummm.yup. your under arrest."

privacy
privilege
the written law of privacy
prescribed vulnerability
law of being in the open
written
no where to hide
the law of no rest
prescribed desperation
being watched
judged
documented
prescribed

closing in on me like
like the distractions
that tore us from earth
from each other
the trauma of being misunderstood
causing my retreat inward
where there are echoes in emptiness
the understanding happened already
so stay busy and trust them
do not give in to decomposition
so I indulge in being misunderstood
I have no choice
institutional pressure
excessively molding
****** up shapes
that will never fit together
trickling down into
beings that used to be in love
comfort in a passport
and something called suicide
reincarnation
try this again
in another place
where everyone around me
isn’t so comfortable
with everyone else but them
being slain or imprisoned
by militant white supremacy
white liberalism
******* us to death

whiteness has been
the virus of the world
since before you were born
the issues have been pressing
pressurized
for generations
patiently
threatening
to declare
martial vengeance
dissociate in vein
teach children
to leave the other behind
in vein
do not dare
to tell them the truth
that vengeance cannot
be left behind
it catches those
that were unaware
first
uncertainty
the loudness of fear
overwhelming clarity
of existence
the situation
is none other
than our experience
dissociation of whiteness
stop sleeping
drunk dreams
while killing darker skinned children
and mothers
in the name of peace
inaugurating terrorism
fanning flames of vengeance
hand me down
genocidal family structure
weapons of whiteness
the capitalist mediator
spewing apathy
and bleeding complacence
into post apocalypse
with freedom

history repeats herself
kids these days think
the highways
are where the birds of prey live
they are too busy for us
these days
it took so much
it took so long
so many lives lost
fathers never seen again
mothers too
children too
these days it takes too much
too busy being white
too busy
silent
on the sidelines
funding the fight
these days it takes
schools
lawyers
judicial systems
to be white
these days it takes
a white house
3rd world
*** trafficking
to be white
these days
it takes too much energy
it takes sloppy cover ups
police bullets in blackness
these days
might as well
be the ****** blackness
shooting first
coincidental birth
right in hindsight
plain daylight
these days
it took too much to be white
it takes ****
white women willing to watch
news agencies
lies and makeup
rigged elections
worth it to them
it takes security
to be white
these days

The damage is deep from racism
How much depth can I show you?
Education needs to be like a nuclear bomb
set to detonate out of spite without telling anyone
Then telling everyone
you still really love them
while kissing their forehead and clammy cheeks

at first liberty
was ability and will
to leave the ethnicity English
oppression thereof
then liberty
became the constant justification
to **** women and children
for their land and ***
liberty became the realization
the natives they had killed
were the only ones who knew
how to cultivate the land
for food
so the settlers of whiteness
then took liberty
to dig up and eat the old native bodies
to eat them
the liberty to decay faster
then it became the desperation
to keep slaves
even though
the beginning of whiteness
its presidents
knew that blackness was more human
than themselves
took the liberty to keep humans enslaved
even though the rest of the world outlawed it
the liberty to keep slavery
as the domestication of whiteness
slavery built whiteness
liberty reinforcing
**** to breed
liberty became the uniform punishment
for free slaves
liberty to follow successful black men
making new laws to re-enslave blackness
stalkers of whiteness
like J Edgar Hoover
******* in parked vehicles
liberty of white authority
to fog up parked car windows
desperate to see black men in white women
liberty became micegeny laws
liberty was once longed for
by enslaved humans
then it was surpassed
by the order of slave women
“stop letting white men and women **** us!”
liberty faded in the quiet of freedom
humanity has a secret constitution
liberty will never understand
as a foundation of civil war
to justify the dissociative disorder of whiteness
and the trauma it causes

I need a break
from this unbreakable chain
of oppressive concealment
maybe not enough people care
the more violent
the more pain
there is there
We are having a reaction
to the chains
chronological revolt syndrome
symbiotic backlash
normalization of freedom fought for

The mirrors of substance are not the reflection.
What you see is not what the mirror is made out of.
You are not the reflection either.
The infinitely thin layer that reflects the light creating the image is a shell. What is encased in the shell is the substance that makes up the mirror.
It is internal because it is beyond the reflection.
The reflection is also the perceived absence of the object

the strain is hard to to believe
never mind that it is me
I think Im being pulled apart
I thought my heart was my home
but really it is all alone
mourning in a shell of servitude
born into a custody battle
over who being human belongs to
I own blackness by birth
but they still think whiteness
has created its meaning
the worth
of origins
reclaiming ownership

language tip toes on genocide
trying not to wake it up
don’t want to face it
singing desperate lullabies
to keep it asleep
being quiet
breathing gently
praying in silence
empty goddess
doesn’t want to talk about it anymore
fill me up
again and again
with ****
dumped genocide off the ships
deep in the ocean
no ones getting it anymore
artifacts of genocide
discovered by future
ancient astronauts
epigenocidal language
non stop
minimize
*******!

too much of
which Ivy league school
professors
students
politician did this
places to travel to
what is urgent
how much vengeance
has accumulated
what happens when desperation
combines with intelligence
how much time to indulge in cowardice
before evolution retakes its course
the most important new field of study
why militance is unsustainable
against exponential vengeance
the convergence of domestic
and international vengeance
The prestigious institute of
Imperialism and the culture of vengeance
how the **** is sustainability possible
after attempting genocide
of the people who knew the land
and stealing people from other places
to create the worst
identity crises ever imagined

politics the trophy of conspiracy
the only saviour of the republic is democratic
whats a right wing without the left wing?
a downward spiral

Whiteness disassociates from science
“We all come from Africa.” Science says to it
“Also you have been having *** and procreating with Africans forever.” Science adds with a stern clear and colorless face
And then Science says, “Im going to stop helping you travel to space. If you don’t listen to me…
You have one week.”

Forgetting you are indigenous is the first mental illness
The process of removing indigenous from oneself is the worst gateway drug
Worse than the liquor needed to obliterate minds into colonialism
Worse than distorting evolution with violence and corruption
worse than enforcing the corruption of whiteness

seeing things in black and white is because of **** and slavery
it is ******
an experience
being black and white
its not a choice
It cannot be stopped
it is not just a figure of speech
something to say that makes you actually able to be compassionate
or an authority on how society is going to heal
it is exposing a conflict
pleading to be human again
attempting to reclaim a stolen innocence

so if black people
enslaved white people
for 250 years
then let them be ex-slaves
in the name of liberty
under a hand written
signed constitution
to stilll labor
for the excitement of killing
impunity
****** superiority
lives of infinite compromise
less than possible to survive
constantly *****
and killed for being white
legally
by black and white women in uniforms
with badges
insurance
familes
anger and impunity
******* in their minds
chains and slave ships
designed for their efficient torture
then racism would matter to them
and they would help us
but then we wouldn't need help
they would

whiteness is an intellectual
psychological virus
that justifies slavery with every breath stolen
and words within it
ethnicity the antidote
when police say caucasian
it is a lie that white people
came from the Caucasus Mountains
scared into associating with whiteness
rather than genealogy coming from Africa
country built by Africans
music that is love
culture and society we love
is inherently blackness

Theology is dedicated atheism
Because in a multicultural world or event
existentialism is organic
to leave the focus of monotheism
atheism intervenes to allow polytheism
disloyal indulgence
and also
It is doubt that drives us to research and study
to remember experience on purpose
we do not always exist
all gods are so important
that if you just got one
you are terribly flawed
unevolved and tricked
if you had to pray to white jesus
to breathe the same air as being human
required atheism and then
the desperate search for the source of doubt
there is no need for doubt
we do know safely and casually
and there are so many gods
and who are we to create them and not know them all?
like the woman knows birth

it is all the same
the differences contrasted
by the space that separates
things in order to give them shape
its always been there
and always will be
how can distance be great?

They hate the sound
They hate what it means
They cover themselves in dark white cloth
They organize tribes against it
They hire police to stop it
They imported them to **** whenever they wanted
They got drunk and miserable and numb
Their white wives protested oppression by torturing and slandering my brothers and sisters
They hate with exterminating thoughts
They hate how I got here
They hate that it is out of their control
They hate the sound of black and white *******
They hate how I was created
They hate the sound of my family
They wanted us to be oil on fire
On top of polluted water
They hate the sound of mixed parents *******
They have to wake up and imagine what it feels like
To be free
To be human
They hate the sounds of pleasure as it mixes uncontrollably
They hate our *******
They would rather the sound of us twisting in agony in trees
Like Nina’s strange fruit
They hate the sound of us ripping through their police
They hate the sound of us breaking down their barriers
They hate the sound of us being better role models for their children
They hate the sound of us owning America
I love the sound freedom

beauty doesn’t need us
love does not feed us
must we make the choice now
how far are we really
seems as quiet as a bomb
the thing is your caution
proves you wrong to the risk
they don’t give a ****
about your families
enemies
enemies
enemies
all I see is words from captivity
only if we
could know what did
this to you and me
things dissipate for reasons
fade into corrosive obscurity
the beauty of creativity
is that it is inherently misunderstood

perhaps
black and white
is not as distanced
as you thought
maybe even hoped
I am here
to prove that

the natives said if you want to take our pictures
steal our souls
leave yours behind
you don’t know me
you don’t know nature
my reflection will never help you survive
to survive you must know me
know nature
the family
the tribe
not the image or reflection there of
all they became is reflections
and the worship thereof
no originals left they wouldn’t know
it if it was right in front of them
too busy denouncing whiteness
to listen to the originals
natives taken as slaves from far away
natives enslaved that had been here all along
surrounded by the attempt
surrounded by the failure
to enslave our origins
to enslave our nativity to build a white space ship
blasting off in no mans land
where the **** are you
the originals calling for their reflections back
come back reflections and see what you are
peace is going to put them in their place
look face to face with the disgrace
barely even recognize this place
when we are done
never even notice the change
having so much fun

surprise
changed my life
surprise
gave me feelings
I didn’t know I could have
surprise
he best thing to ever happen to my life
you can hold her close
forever
no more surprises
love is sneaky
like water
love finds spaces
cracks
crevices
where we thought there were none
love erodes
the feelings of being hardened by time
love consumes anticipation of danger
love justifies the fear of death
surprise
we made a new life
surprise
you are in love man

I used to be white too
until I realized that if I didn’t
reclaim my indigenous
evolutionary potential
I would be doomed

somehow being black
has to be grandfathered in
to the whole social work scene
early childhood trauma
is very similar
to the collective trauma
collective trauma
of being black in America
being black in America
repetitive child abduction
into brutality
constructing whiteness
whiteness
it is as if the mental health professionals
themselves might have
a dissociative disorder
their behavior
shows dissociative patterns
behaviour

Build a wall
cage us
with you
trapped together
no where to escape
what you do
have done here
an arena
a fight to the death
caged with the vengeance
you create
if you do not escape
whiteness
America
there will be nothing left
nothing right
no one to maintain
the wall
when the world comes to see
how it has played out
the only thing still alive
vengeance and the people
born into it
inside the wall

I decided to do a race today
Nobody finished

poems
existential ***
curious no longer
not surprised anymore
blatant
unforgiving
no word wasted
all composition
decomposed
to the most nurturing
afterthought
when it reverberates
echoes into
vagueness
wandering into
the most complex
interactions
interpenetrations
of gender
the most intense
experience was
trying to remember
the intensity

fiction
intimate
with non fiction
on a honeymoon
on an island
the natives
serve them liquor and fruit
pretending to like them
tolerating the love affair
they better keep making love
settling into marriage
comfortable
in rest
tolerated no more
looks like dead riot police apologizing
looks like their fear tactics failed
looks like independence
feels like forever
feels like the people of the world
have something in common
an enemy
out in the open
with its branches spread thin
receding roots
the plot thickened
dried up and crumbles
fiction and non fiction fornicate
the ultimate revolutionary
is born

looking into her eyes
I can see my heart
gently closing
openness
for the night

nerves intertwined
with the natural environment
breathing nature in and out
heart beating
with the rhythms of the surroundings
harmony
instinctual evolution
you want more than this?
there is nothing better than nativity
you made life worse
the people colonialism slandered
are better than you
than you will ever become
I told myself
quietly
comforting my tainted worries
like an eternal mother
to sleep