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Savannah Dec 2017
Stop
Tearing me apart
Only to ask why I can't
Put myself back together
Savannah Dec 2017
Hey Darling,
Do you know where I set my pills?
I need some chemical help.
I know I said I love you,
but how can I love you
if I can only think of myself.

Don't blame me, my love,
it's my cells beginning to die.
Call my mother, my father, my sister, my brother.
I'm sure there's still time to cry.

Oh, it has to be this way my love.
No happy day could make this better.
My God chose no other fate.
I know it's hard to recover
from losing your mother;
I'd wish you not carry that weight

Now look at me, honey,
can you see the pain in my eyes?
Burning coals of desperation,
all part of my last aspiration
to finally lay down and die.

Please just know that I loved you,
but my dead heart will never keep you well.
So please move onto some other,
and you'll know that I suffered,
but at least I'm not burning in Hell.
Savannah Dec 2017
Happiness is a mission and everyone is engaged
Obsessed with getting their piece of this "golden age"
But then there are others who sit inside when it rains
Because dancing isn't always the way to **** your pain

We can't all just smile when we're happy
Some hold in the joy to make it last a little more
Knowing expectations are to be flawlessly satisfied
Even when you are shaken to your core

"Don't conform" and individuality is a trend that doesn't mix
With those who aren't grinning ear to ear
True emotion is shunned and devalued
In this world where it's too cliche to care
Wrote this awhile ago.
Savannah Dec 2017
I send a smile into the world and it's all for you

I laugh at a joke until I cry and it's all for you

I kiss those soft delicious lips and it's all for you

I make a fool of myself to see a grin and it's all for you

I take off my clothes and let go of my dignity and it's all for you

I let this fire burn me to ash and it's all for you

I jump off this cliff and break my neck and it's all for you

I feel frozen inside like winter and it's all for you

I turn into the monster underneath children's beds and it's all for you

I become the same nightmare that keeps me awake at night and it's all for you

I rip off my skin and bleed out what's left of who I was and it's all for you

Now you're gone

I don't know who I am anymore and it was all for you
This is reminiscent of a past relationship that made me toxic.
  Dec 2017 Savannah
Andrei Corre
A cup of tea is what we shared
Through sweet exchange of sighs
I want to pour all what I feel
'Hind this ceramic cup
Autumn leaves and puff of air
I try to convey my words
But a gust of wind to my cup of tea
Is all that had occurred.
Savannah Dec 2017
I have no heart for the shadows at the table

What remains of what has been and never will be again

Dinners had on rainy nights with people who now cease to breathe

Breakfast alone because no one liked the sun quite as much as me

It's all just a corpse of pleasant times far gone

Family and friends bowing heads and saying prayers

Over a magnificent meal prepared by weathered womanly hands

Memories of a happiness that I, myself, can no longer stand
Childhood nostalgia
Savannah Dec 2017
I had a many I'd have claimed as a friend
Though never seeing a truth so defined
We tell ourselves and each other it will never end
But whether intentional or not, it was a lie

Pathetic, I felt, like it had all been my fault
That those I saw as dear did not respond
I know now that I've realised it is not
That maybe friends truly don't last that long

Yet here I sit writing my burden down
Hoping to see the face of a friend from long ago
But I'll lay my heavy head to sleep with a frown
Because I should have guessed they wouldn't show

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