Have my words annoyed you?
Then they have succeeded
Things took a wrong turn
But you were the one manoeuvring
Sorry I called you out
Guess love is not that blind

I remember the last time I walked to your house,
in my headphones, a song by the cure
‘The cure’.. A bit ironic, I thought
Cause I was so sick
So, so, sick,
of loving
you.

Sometimes I eat alone
seated across my thoughts
and I wish
you were here
to hear them

You don’t exist in this universe
I’m living in,
the happiest version I’ve ever been
But then again,
Something is always missing.

You are just a stranger
In a familiar body
I’m still holding onto.

A formidable adversary
An even better rattle
In the anniversary of our last
soul-drowning battle

Long gone, every day further
My dearest enemy
no one got the glory
I’d surrender, but war is over.

Am I a soul or a set of skills?
Am I a woman or just your desire?
When will I be free from everyone’s perspectives?
And when will It burnt,
My fire

my mind just was
submerged in that daydream
Romance is
An illusion of a team
Reality would eventually hit
no scenario less fancied than this
Not thought of as devotee,
but as a rival I was seen.

Such a selfish thought
Being attached to the past
when it is understood
moments are not meant to last.
Change is braided with time,
Are we supposed to ignore that?

I got used to be non-worthy
All of those years
Love given to me so poorly

It’s the same floor
It’s the same bed
It’s the same line of the song I forget
Each year it’s the usual process
Remembering stuff that used to bother
All the lessons, unlearned
Regret flowing as tears down my face

It was real, at least a while
I wish it was a dream,
But past shouldn’t last all night.