The scenario in my mind is set,
I’m just too afraid
To say
“action”

I took all the love I gave to you
And used it for myself

Your name on my screen.
I forgot how it feels,
I lost my voice
I almost couldn’t breathe
But It wasn’t the same pain
It was some sort of relief
As I open up your message
and press the word “delete”

My mind is full with conversations,
Yet it’s all so quiet

The room is quiet,
No one is near,
Your sneaky hand
Makes its way to me;
my flesh, my soul
Shivering
To the expert dance
of your  fingertips

You were never that good,

I put some filter for your soul,

I made you up inside my mind.

Well, she had given her soul away before,
Of course she was soulless.

I wanted to love you so bad
I was so inspired!
It was better in my mind, I guess
I messed up.

After you used my body
My soul was tired
After you put a light in my eye
There was a fire

I’m done playing this game
Against myself
It’s about time I meet
A worthy rival

I can hear your thoughts,
they dont let me sleep.

Seduta su questa scala
Guardando il mare
Mi ricorda il momento
In cui ** trovato
il percorso corretto
Di andare
Mille notti di piacere
effimero
sono stati per te
il mio tempo prezioso
perso in te
Effimero
Come sei
e come per me
È adesso, gia
Il amore che avevo
tanti anni fa

You thought  I was playing victim, but for me, it was never a game

Why do I see love everywhere I go?
Why do I seek love everywhere I go?

It was chaotic, the beating of my heart
At the bare, minimum, touch of your hand
I was at ease, and under attack
Resting my thoughts on your lap

Sometimes I suddenly wake
Scared, anxious, nervous
Flooded with memories
Of a familiar stranger
And the scariest part
is this image, of myself,
so vulnerable, so happy

next to him.

You  added colour to my mess
and me like a painting
you weren’t quite happy with
The egotistical artist in you
thought could paint over

I was ruined forever

Wild and twisted
The roots of your caring
Managed to stay in my heart.
I tried to **** them,
But they grew back

I want nothing to do with you.
I am comfortable in the memories,
safe, knowing I made it through.
Aware of the outcome.
Dealing with the consequences—
Of the bittersweet experience,
The terrible rollercoaster,
Of your intermittent affection.

It sickens me
How it occupied a part of my reason
The way I detailed a map of your heart
In exchange of
A sugarcoated rusty knife in my back

Perhaps all your exes do better after you for a reason
Perhaps my words are aimed to hurt
                                      
                          You.

And now that I know they could,
I wouldn’t  mind if they do.
Cause perhaps I am still sour,
From the taste of your love
And its deep, light-consuming
hole in my soul.

You are like a song
              forever
                        Stuck in my head

Can you imagine all the conversations we could’ve had?
All the songs we could’ve sung?

Once again,
I’m sharing a life
With a past dream

Oh you come to my mind
In waves
And I want to drown
But my instinct makes me swim
Makes me survive
And when I reach the shore
I am safe
And grateful.

I made a nest in my wounds
Please don’t cure me,
I don’t want to be cured.

You are a ghost
But, oh, how I fancy you to scare me
Trapped in the past,
No other words casts.
If I have to be haunted,
Let it be you,
Let it be now.

I’ll imagine
I’m sending you a song
That I know
You’d love.
And in my head
we are dancing
to the rhythm
Of our once treasured
Now forgotten, bitter,
Love.