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Derekis Jul 2020
Just give me a reason, to keep my heart beating.
Don't worry, it's safe right here in my arms.

As the world falls apart around us, all we can do is hold on..
Hold on and take my hand!

To bring us back!

A can feel a whisper into the night,
telling me it's not my time and don't give up.

I've never stood up by myself before this time
but I want to wake up! wake up!

Just tell me the reason.
To never see the end.

So lets stand up! stand up!
Fight for life until there is no more.

This silence between us.
Say no more, I can hear you.

Look how far we've made it.
That pain, we have escaped it.

Dawn is finally breaking.
So, let's go, its time to begin.
I didnt totally write this, they are lyrics for a song but tonight I just put the song on a loop and I had to write this and just post it.. somedays I just need to focus the emotions out somehow and although this time I couldnt do anything original.. well, noone is reading this, this is for me. Remember this feeling, future me. Hold on, dont give up.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hh9yZWeTmVM
Derekis Nov 2020
Wake up, you don't belong here.
You know what you are.

We are both survivors in this.
No love for you in here.

Open up eyes,
I am your enemy.

Did you really think I could have become...
something else other than your enemy.

I am in your nightmares.
The hunt isn't over.

Nowhere to run for you in this chase.
No safety for you in this place.
No place to call home under their grace.

Emptiness unbecome us.
Fear, regret, shame, it fills us.

Time for us to leave.
To wake up and repeat.
Derekis Jan 2015
If only I could say goodbye,
One last.. one more single time,
it would have made me free
but it's too late now
our old world has to go.

I feel so alone,
our ****** bond on the floor.
It's too late now
as our warm memories fall
into time's cold door.

I'm not going to make it..
through this pointless struggle.
My body can't take it.
I am tired to my core.

Feelings of encroaching danger
and I don't want to surrender
our memories, so tender
but I feel guilt's unforgiving gaze
through this grey gloomy haze
and I can't deal with this feeling
anymore..

If only you could see me cry,
you could see how I feel
because I know your trust,
I will never restore..
Derekis Jan 2015
Wrought from the hate from a world that's old.
Made with a heart of gold, a very unique mold.
Tempered with the heat of forgotten lore,
the creator saw his revenge's hope soar.

Brought from the depths of a mountain core,
where the rage was bold as the creator swore.
Awaken twilight titan with a mighty roar!
decorate hell's halls with endless gore.

Running in an endless chase
and into the dark of an empty space,
he whets his blade with earnest blood
and yet he thirsts for more and more.

Now run little man as your end unfolds.
A cursed giant follows your every step,
hidden in lies, corruption and hate,
await your justice as it was foretold.

Cold are the hands grasping at your soul,
he dwells in shadow behind your mind's door.
He lies patiently in wait for death bell's toll,
making terrifying sounds you cant just ignore.
Derekis Aug 2015
Nostalgic nights over lonely hearts.
Watching love happen in digital fairy tales,
pondering the probability of such farce,
in this drafting boat without sails.

Romantic overtones palpable in the screen,
I wonder about the experience of such deed.
This would be a wonderful break to my dull routine.
This is what I want, but is this what I need?
I shall keep a lookout for emotions unseen.

Straight into you, one day I bump into.
Shyness on red, my face glows in realization.
Your smile and fashion, a reason for adoration.
In my heart, I know, I have finally found you.

A small dose of attention goes a long way,
a small kindness like sunshine's ray,
desperate gratitude turns to affection,
from there, a small step to infatuation.

Like a fugued shooting star,
racing through your night sky,
I fall hard for your kind eyes,
my devotion, most bizarre.

I will give you my burning passion.
Let it warm you with satisfaction.

I will love you with compassion.
My adoration the main attraction.

Let me shower you with affection.
Adorable obsession without caution.

Take it all.
Spend it all.
This is what I want.
This is definitely what I need.

Let's ride through hell together,
timeless revolution our blazing path.
No obstacles against combined wrath,
our enemies we will turn into ****** weather.

Our bond strengthens, we will never despair,
conquering with our power, heaven itself.
and as I close my eyes, I think deeply to myself,
this is what I need, but is this the way I want?

Smiling to myself in this wonderful delusion,
satisfied to this most delightful conclusion,
that I'm drowning in delightful fascination,
its okay, for my dullness, you are salvation.
Derekis Mar 2015
You leave..

You never even got to know me.

Outside, through my lonely window.
Reflection, of what you put me through.
Inside, my love in crescendo,
a pain, I didn't even knew.

This is a lullaby to close my eyes,
to recall the beauty of our shared skies.
This is a song to help me realize,
the torture of hope and self-written lies.

The wind, howls through the empty room.
A room where both our hearts once stood.
A final light coming from a lone star,
a star which I know it's just too far...

This is the chorus sung by my heart,
to remember the beauty of a shared spark.
This is the music of memory's past,
a nostalgic beat that forever will last.

My flame, lying silent before me,
forgotten, hungry and abandoned.
Your warmth, it was poorly handled,
I'm here, yearning for your smile.

This is a lullaby to drown my cries,
a song meant for my sorrows to die.
This is a chorus to what I despise,
the music my demons use to lie.

Goodbye..
Goodbye..
My own feelings of insecurity bring these strong abandonment feelings forth every time she hangs up the phone. She swears she will forever be mine, but my past scars just don't let me believe...these demons, I cannot vanquish.
Derekis Sep 2019
Sacrifice my love as you want it.
Twice the pain you took, I can feel it.
Craze the fade away as you shun it.
Praise our time that is all seeing.

Take away my heart.

Fear the insane which holds your thinking.
Throw away that hate that is stinging.
Clear the doubts of ruin in your singing.
Let the sun of new smiles sink in.

Love is everything,
Love is everything,
Ive known about you.

Smashing up the voices of your sinning.
Crashing down your walls like a hammer.
Sealing the cracks of your ship when you are sinking.
Saving both our lives with some glamour.

Take me with your tears,
I think we are falling.
Bring back the cheers,
the dawn is calling.

Now I feel more alive than anything.
Because love is everything.
Love is everything.
I've known about you.

From the sun to the moon my thoughts walk with you.
Derekis Jul 2022
Deep inside you awaits this light
Looking for a way to come out and shine
Fighting for its place in your life
Waiting for its time to show you all its pride♫

Deep away into the night,
know everything will be fine.
A spark that will end your strife,
rising up higher to let the world know you've tried♫

It will make you strong!
Brighter than the sun!
Let it dawn inside you!

All those tears you've shed,
All those fears you' ve led,
they will make you blossom with beauty!

There may be confusing times,
when you feel lost and alone.
Just look around you.
In you they believe!
You can make it shine!

Everything you've dreamt,
Everything you've shared
Gives that sparkle your beauty!

They will make you strong!
Brighter than the sun!
Let it dawn inside you!

You can make it shine!
Make it shine so bright!
Give your life that sparkle of beauty!

Everywhere where you go!
Anything you can!
Anytime you want!

Go out there and let it shine!♫
You can do it!

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