Should you need me, I’ll be dreaming of you

The first thing I reach for in the morning

is you.

Yet you’ve changed,
you’re a box
full of bad habits.

I've been hiding behind my walls,
Afraid of coming out,
Even when the person of my dreams is in front of me.

I am scared to get in a relationship because I've been in so many abusive ones.

I tell myself that I don't need love and that my best friend is all that I need,
But deep down I know that I want something more.

See pictures,
they've got
voice.

Feel words,
they've got
womb.

Observe nature,
they've got
us.

I am terrified you'll disappear
I know I shouldn't rely so
heavily on you
but I can't go back to how I was before

not when you gave me a reason
not when you are my reason