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9.5k · Dec 2014
dear bestfriend
Courtney Dec 2014
Im cold and alone and you're all I have.
And the voices have come again. And they are louder.
"you're worthless" "you're nothing" "no one likes you" "I hate you"
"just die" "you're fat and ugly" "**** yourself"


As I scream and cry for your help, you comfort me.
You tell me, it'll be okay now hush hunny
I slide you through my skin.
   I go  again
and  again

Yet, stil i can't feel anything inside, all i can feel is the
Warmth of the blood that is flowing down my leg.
For I am hollow inside,  I can no longer feel.
All I can feel is your cold kisses on my skin.

dear bestfriend, you're my *sweet release.
1.5k · Dec 2014
You.
Courtney Dec 2014
You use to make my heart skip a beat
         and my stomach do flips
And now you're kissing her and  
           and I'm hugging him.
Yet, here I am wasting my tears on you.
*****.
427 · Dec 2014
love
Courtney Dec 2014
the funniest thing about love is what it can bring.
it can bring sadness or anger or happiness.
love is a wonderful and deadly thing.
love is the strongest thing in the world.
its hell and its heaven.
its good and evil.
its like dancing with the devil.
so innocent yet so cruel.
or it can be like looking in the eyes of Him.
all i know is, my best choice was falling in love with you.
and yet why do i feel it was the worst mistake.
love love love
394 · Dec 2014
Untitled
Courtney Dec 2014
Lust. Lust. Lust.
we lay body on body
breathing hard, sweating.
i want you. i want you. i want you.
Love? Love? Love?
no. never. i cant be in love.
but what if? why not me? i could be.
but im not,i cant be. i cant love you. no
i love you. i love you. i love you.
but you can never love me.
not finished.

— The End —