It haunts me in my dreams
And it kills me in my sleep
Oh I am so afraid yes I am so ashamed
What could it all mean
Black scars that run so deep
Transgressions of my past in my heart that I do keep
Yes I am so afraid and forever so ashamed
Does it make me weak to know that
I can't speak your name soft and slow
Without the searing pain of blame
Welling up in my chest, it makes me so **** depressed
Of your name I am afraid
Of our end I am ashamed

Seasons fade
into the years
a pen ablaze
with poet’s tears

A young boy
must be a man
to please the one
he never can

A girl in pain
lamenting fate
her trickster gods
arrived too late

Everyone took
and no one gave
an empty race
to fill a grave

Hearts are broken
love’s a *****
start a party
throw a war

I fear that I
forgot to say
I love you
it’s too late today
No more tears
to write or cry
alone at night
still asking why

is what i think about
when im alone
in the dark
maybe its the darkness getting to my eyes, leading to my head that you have altered
or maybe its the way i can see your glowing smile in the light of the moon
fact over fiction tells me its the pain trapped in my heart
in every scenario, you are the cause of my never ending pain

(a.b)