The damage a storm can do
isn't even close to how I felt after you

you don’t just make her cry and hurt inside,

you make her scream at the pain of her own hands.

drowning in my own thoughts. fighting my own mind to understand.

My bodies cold
lips are blue
why did I do this because of you?

I feel the earth below me
like a pillow under my head
no knives, no guns, but pills instead

The bottle lays empty
cap unscrewed
what did I do? what did I do?

My spirit floats my body lays
my lover finds me
and he prays

I reach for him
I'm ****** away
like a deep crest of a wave

he pounds the ground
screaming why oh why?
I asked myself why did I?

My parents arrive, my best friend too
I thought to myself, What did I do!?

I look away the pains to deep
my life is over because of me

I look back for one last glance
they zip me up in the body bag.
I did this to ease my pain
I lost instead of gained

as I look down my family
I regret that night
my life stopped ticking
because of a fight.

You fall for these boys who won't be there for you
I was there from day one
You passed me like I'm just trash
**** I'm tired of everything and everyone
Those guys that are flashing are the same ones that are gonna leave when you have a child.
They'll disappear and you wonder to yourself, "where are all the good guys?"
I was always there now I'm gone
I'll find someone that loves me for me
I'll find someone better than you
You're the piece of trash that no one wants
Now I see you looking at me, but i pass you by like you're trash.

~I am young, probably younger than most of you, in my early teens. If someone asks you to send a **** pic of yourself, PLEASE don't do it, no matter how much you love them! I know you're smart and think you wouldn't do this, but someday you may have a tough choice. My friend ended up committing SUICIDE for sending an inappropriate pic to her bf, who posted it on instagram. Please, if you get the choice, PLEASE PLEASE don't do it. It will risk your life.~

Every day I walk
to school
in short shorts and
black socks,
black shoes,
a black sweatshirt and
a black bandana woven beneath
golden blonde hair.

And on days when
the sun blazes
turning concrete into
rivers
they wonder.

Did I etch into my skin
the silver ink
of shame and
alienation?

Do the words
and the hurt still
run liquid red beneath the
heavy black fabric?

They are so quick
to judge and call me
‘Emo’ or
‘Goth,’
to think that I
would take up the sword
against myself and
inscribe a history
of self-hate or
perpetual misery.

But they’re never stopped
to consider--

maybe even on hot days
the icy bite of loneliness
clings to my limbs
and never leaves, or that

perhaps I want to be invisible,
fade into the shadows
like the very essence of my
self-esteem and dignity

only shadows of what I
used to be.

A love so strong
Could always forgive
A love so strong
Could always forget
A love so strong would never leave, because it’s a love so strong and that’s what every lover needs.

I could never leave you
Because my heart needs you
You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me
Why yours is like a little  seizure?

I thought our love was true
But you left me on the middle of the road without a clue
I didn’t know what to do
At that time I really needed you


I thought two lovers was amazing
I thought to lovers was creative
I thought two lovers only care about each other
And only one another

But you prove to me that I was wrong
You prove to me that I was dumb
Because I believe what you told me
I believed that you was in love ….. I’m so dumb

You just see my body
And that’s what you want
You see my curves
And that’s what you want

You get that *** scene of us and that’s what you wanted
You never wanted “us”
You never wanted love
You just want to *** not even make love.

It took me so long to realize this
Even though I already gave you some of me
You still managed to stay
Something I could never understand

Which is what makes me think you loved me
But yet again
I could be thinking on space
With my eyes covered by my hands

I love you, I love you enough to forgive you
But I cant fight anymore
My heart cant handle it anymore