I am determine to be with you forever Lord.
No matter how much I may fail you here God.
For as long as I keep getting up from failures.
I still have a chance of being one of your people.
It's only after giving up do I fail you the most.
Because our salvation is not in us but through you.
Only by hanging onto you and your truths here.
May your Salvation keep growing within me daily.
So I shall continue reading your words and praying.
For others as well as praying for myself as well here.
So that I may grow in your truths as well my Savior.

Don't believe the world
Life is not what it seems

They laugh they dance they celebrate
To remind you of how boring your life is

But they are lost in their own misery  

Don't believe the world
All is not as it seems

They fashion themselves in expensive silks and fine linens
To show off their wealth to the poor

But they are naked and can not clothe their guilty conscious

Don't believe the world
What you see is far from the truth

They lay their heads on pillows to sleep
But find no peace and rest

Don't believe the world
True happiness
Is selflessness

And true peace
Comes from God

To let go of thy desires, to pick up your desires.
By far is the Greatest of Sacrifices O Holy God.
Because by letting go of what we desire the most.
To pick up what you desire from us the very most.
Is by far the wisest of decisions that we can ever make.
For we can not see our future, but you seen it long ago.
So I would rather trust you,  then  to trust myself always.
For you only want the very best for me in everything.
So here I am use me to reach out to everyone you desire me to.

This ole world has become so dangerous anymore.
People dying for all sorts of reason in todays time.
Even the some of the law officers killing unarm people.
Only way to stay protected is hanging on to Christ.
Praying his Loving protection over us before we step out.
For this world has become tenfold more dangerous in the past few years.
Weather wise as well as people wise, it down right scary.
But believe me, if we cry out to Christ  he shall reveal his protection.
I know from first hand that he shall protect his people here.

My heart song is allow God to use his words to speak to my heart.
So that I may write them down and share with others his healing love.
My heart song is not to become rich through his words as the worldly crave.
But to allow his words to become a healing factor to all that read this.
Thus shall see him through their healing process that they go through.
My heart song is to be used by the Creator as a tool of healing to others.
So that he shall receive this Glory not lowly I  but it shall be his Glory.
For I am just his tool that he uses to bless and heal other people here.
For this is my heart song for others to become healed through him.

Sometimes I get overwhelm by the Loneliness in this world.
Sometimes I might get overwhelm, here on the earth too.
Sometimes all that I want to do is sleep and sleep even more.
Sometimes I become so isolated , feeling unworthy and lonely.
But even though I battle these struggles in this here life I live.
I know that I am not alone, but have Christ right beside me.
I know that this loneliness is a fleshy thing that try's to overcome me.
I know that I am worthy, because Christ has told me that I am.
So even though my flesh lies to me , I know that God's promises are truth.

Lord, help me to be that as a child
When it comes to prayer
The innocence with which they're blessed
Under your gentle tender care

Deep within my soul I know
The child of innocence has found assurance
With your love and protection always there
Given at a moments notice

Because when a child's world is in turmoil
That is when they reach out their hands
Where no words need be spoken
As God the Father always understands

He is the child's Savior as he is for me
I need the faith of a child in the midst of catastrophe
Instead of thinking I can do it all on my own
I need only give him that faith knowing he has been here all along
And will continue to be long after I'm gone...

You look and see the shape the world is in
Your so afraid any day it's going to end
Let me let you in on a secret friend

You can never PRAY enough

Your asking me if that helps
I'm asking you if not then what else
As the world around you quickly melts

You can never PRAY enough

The moral collapse of society
The putrid air that we all breathe
Needs that drive us to our knees

You can never PRAY enough

The knuckle heads that are in charge
The loony's running freely in the yard
The very best in get well cards

You can never PRAY enough

Even when it's all running smooth
Be it Latitude or Longitude
Word of mouth or in the news

You can never PRAY enough

My advice to those out there
Retirement age or Kinder care
Here or there or anywhere

You can never PRAY enough

I am a Christian.
Do not look at me differently,
Do not roll your eyes or scoff.
Do not lump me in with every other Christian
You have ever met
Or heard of.
Do not assume that I am like the Westboro Baptists,
Or that I only believe what I do because of my parents.
Do not question my sanity.
Do not assume you know my views or my reasons,
But please, ask.
Do not suppose I will be extreme,
Or that I live under a rock.
Do not think I am naïve or a saint,
Or that I expect everyone to live
By what I think is right.
Do not presume that I fit your stereotypes, whatever they might be.
Do not take for granted that I have no idea how to have fun.
Do not associate church or my faith with being boring.
Do not suppose that you understand me or the depths of what I believe.


Please just do not assume that because you know one, you know all.
I am a Christian.
Ask me why.
Ask me about my thoughts on the world,
Or on political issues.
I will gladly tell you whatever you’d like to know.
Ask me about the wonderful moments of God I see around me.
Ask me what evidence I have.
Tell me all about what you believe.
Talk to me without reservations or awkwardness.
Ask me what traditions my family has, or how we celebrate holidays.
Ask me what makes me different.
Laugh with me about the children I babysit during Bible study.
Cry with me when someone passes away.
Look with me to see the ways God is working in the world.
Give thanks with me before dinner.
Join me at church one day to see what it’s like for yourself.
Love with me all the lost people in the world.
Love yourself.
I am a Christian.

If I were to die in the middle of the night O God.
I pray that you use my life to make a difference.
In other people lives, to draw them unto you.
If I was to die in the middle of the morning.
I pray O Saving One , that through my actions.
Many different people seen you within me.
Thus drawing upon you to be saved as well.
If I was to die, in the middle of the afternoon.
May many through my repentance of sin.
See the sacrifice was good and do the same.
Repenting of sins as well and becoming born-again believers.

Everyday it gets harder.
Everyday it is a nightmare
                progressing on and on.
Everyday is another prayer
           echoing from my bones,
asking God to please take me now.
Everyday I close up more and more.
    It is getting more impossible to stay here.
Everyday I feel myself die more and more.
     When I  lay down each night,
I wonder how ill leave this hell..
       I never felt so much pain.