Melancholy sighs - Hello Poetry

Nov 2016

r

Solitude I wear
      like a second skin
my biggest weakness
       my greatest strength
   wading through
quiet and tired
    in seclusion
as dawn draws
    her arms around me
cold       and damp
    like the sea
           with no oil
for my lamp
       to light my way
through another
    dark    and lonely
November day.

Nov 2016

storm siren

Fear and Breathlessness

I have bruises
On the inside
That grow to the outside.
I have bruises on my heart,
That grow inside my mind.

I have bruises
On my thighs
And scratches
On my shins.

All these things
From dreams I can't unsee.

I dreamnt that I couldn't save any of them,
Because I didn't.
And I woke up in your arms,
Feeling guilty,
And afraid of myself.

Nothing feels real,
And that's my fault.

I could list off the reasons why you shouldn't love me,
But I know that you do,
And who am I to change your mind?

And I guess it all reminds me,

I've got running away running through my veins,
But I'd like nothing more than to stay.

So stay I will.

Things.

#love #guilt #recovery #nightmares #spokenword #freeverse

Nov 2016

Alēa

I feel that I have failed

I feel that I have failed
To do the one thing I was designed to do

To pour my heart into the empty spaces in your chest
To replace the raging chaos in your mind with the bright light that leaks from my lips
To give you a sense of belonging when the world denies you

I feel that I have failed
To do the one thing I was designed to do

To hold you so tightly that your broken pieces would mold back into one
To put your insecurities to sleep inside of my bones
To dry your tears with my hands that will soak up every last one of your fears

I feel that I have failed
To do the one thing I was designed to do

I feel that I have failed
Failed to save you

#love #lost #failure

Nov 2016

Gypsy Ashlyn

Take a Breath

My abilities are stronger than I see
I mean, we can get along
But I won't attach so easily
The parasitic tendencies
That reside in my skull
Slither like a snake through my body
Touching every heart
And infecting your soul
Though I do not wish to linger
I fear I have overstayed my welcome
I have dreams of us together
But I should shelve them
For my grappling grip on your lungs
Has left you weary and blue

#love #worry

Nov 2016

Sjr1000

Streams of Consciousness

Bang!
Wake on up and its already started
The monologue won't shut up
Talk
Talk
Talk
Blah
Blah
Blah

You coulda
You woulda
You shoulda

Shoulding on your self again
What's wrong with you?
Anyway

I listen to this all day
Sometimes first person
Sometimes third person
It doesn't matter what other people are saying
Doesn't matter if anyone else is even
around

Thinking is talking
loud or soft
talking to myself
Sometimes my best friend
Sometimes the critic that never ends

Quiet the thoughts
Stillness
A peaceful place

Breathe in
Breathe out

Time keeps passing
All anxiety eventually
goes away

Read for a while
It'll be okay

The lights are out
The cats are in the laundry room
It's foggy out
No San Francisco planes are coming in
tonight

Should I **** myself?
No, maybe tomorrow

Cozy in bed
Silence
Lights out.

Bang!

God, I just wanta sleep
sometime
tonight.

Nov 2016

Lora Lee

Breathe

The sludge
of mud
       that creeps up
to my eyes
squelches me
down like quicksand
***** a large
breathing object
                         into
its grainy film
an antithesis
       of sea
lungs sputtering
out brain reeling
in remnants of
clusterfucked,
panic –driven
welting
and I am ready to
burst out
legs trapped
yet voice high
heart squealing
in the fire
bring me to
somewhere
it’s a situation
                    dire
this madness
cupping me through
time-realms
and I must find it
that liquid that
wet flow of writhing
struggling
breaking
            free
of those heavy bands
of slimy kelp
holding me
squirm me out
I don’t care
if I get the
muck of centuries
in my hair
for in my veins
my blood does see
I crave the sunlight's
strokes
and
        I
            must
breathe

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MCIaj-oLi28
www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_u5iCHi0Jo

#freedom #need #longing #renewal

Nov 2016

kiera

sticky

my chest aches
but i know my struggle
is not unique or important
it is one of self pity
for too long i have made myself sick
why do i never learn
the more i live the more i trip over my feet

my thoughts are heavy, booming like thunder
but when i speak my words fall out like cake crumbs
airy, pointless, forgetful
do they see me as dumb and powerless like i feel?

everything i do is an effort to distract
from what i cannot say out loud
i live in a honey world
surrounded by sappy sweetness
but i cannot breathe or move through it
to connect with those around me

#poem #fear #depression #life #pain #anxiety #hurt #struggle

Nov 2016

phil roberts

TEMPLE OF HERESIES

Now that I am more sober
Than those who judge us
And straighter than
Those who would lead us
My eyes see clearly
And my ears hear
The fallacies of generations

Now the age blazes
For new definitions
And more honest realities

So now it's time
To imagine the unthinkable
To forget the age-old rules
Evolved by those
Who had selfish reasons
And traditional means
To keep us in ignorance
And in our places

By Phil Roberts