If you want to taste the color grey,
date me.
I'd shower you poems
and offer you warm chocolate everyday.
I'd color you grey
and you'd devoid me with color.

what is love?
I don't know what love is
but when I saw you
I'm attracted to your mysterious words,
your swift gaze on the night sky,
your luminous sincere smile,
and mostly
your flaws.
I wanted to feel your world
but you're the moon and i'm the wolf.

I hope you're looking at the moon too,
the same stars
and dream of me tonight
because I dream of you all day
all night.

void heart is dangerous
works like a drug; hallucination
that every man are fond of the owner.
apparition of fairy tale
unbearable from day to day.
counting times to meet the other half
it's ludicrous, unbearable, embarrassing.
it's a part of fulling the void; unloved.

give me the breathe of life
as i'm watering my soul
and i am holding for my dear life
as my soul ******* like a tree on fall
and my skin and bone aging as the aging tree.
I stare at the stars everynight
praying i get to the light house
on the other side of the island,
and to see and kiss him.
I crave for heaven that seems so far away
where the flowers are fresh
and pink cotton candy smile are the mask.
I'm unable to be human enough
to live with my fragile soul
where i'm being eaten alive by my soul
and I keep on die because of the waves of emotion
suffocating me.

I see a ghost in my room.
It started a month ago.
He appears everytime i'm alone.
with it comes sadness and longing and regret.
in absence of sight
I can also feel his presence in every smell in the room
and living room.
In every songs and movies.
In every void mind of mine.

Maybe what I need was a closure,
a closure of are still the moon and the venus star.
The closure left me in despair
and chaotic mind.
Now you've told me that we are the moon and the stars of the night,
but we are not the moon and the venus star.

I found myself draw
a scene of perhaps my future.
my deepest desire
my subconscious.
a scene of two bodies and souls colliding.

Dear him.

I want it to be like in the movies,
love at the first sight.

Like how Augustus saw Hazel Grace,
like how Adam saw Mia.
I want you to keen me for my beauty.
The beauty only you can see.
I want you to keen me for my passion.
The passion some people hard to understand.

I want it to be dinner in romantic restaurants,
I want you to give me your jacket when it's cold,
I want you to walk me home.

I want you to talk with me bout life,
about how the world was created,
gazing the stars together,
singing with me,
and hold me in your arms all night,
so I can listen to your heartbeat.

I know it's too much,
but I want it just like the movies.

By life you're altered,
bit by bit molded by fate's hand
and someday maybe tomorrow,
you'll come face to face with your own reflection
and you'll be surprised or terrified,
because the beast has conquered your angel
or
your angel has consumed your beast.