Can't Believe It's Not Butter

Jan 2016

Storm Raven

Suicidal poem (don't read when triggering)

If I could only slide my wrists and die...
If I only could leave this place behind...
If I only could OD on some pills or...
Jump of a building so high...

I fear I did be gone by now
Weren't it for those people who care
That I am fighting

I want to die
Hurt myself
Commit suicide
But I promised them not too

#suicide #sad #depression #pain #death #depressed #die #dark #suicidal #promise

Jan 2016

Pastell dichter

stop lying

you say "you'll be okay"
"your not small and alone"

I want to scream "stop lying to me"
but I don't want to hurt you
so I keep quiet
and cry softly

#depression #okay #lying #selfhate

Jan 2016

Pastell dichter

Waiting

It's like waiting for the executioner
Or your prison sentence

I hate waiting
Because all you can do is worry and fret

It's like waiting to hear the bad news you know is coming
Or for the men to show up and take you away

But all it is
Is my mom picking me up From my dads

#worry #waiting #hating #devorce

Can't Believe It's Not Butter Jan 2016

it will get better

"Why does life hurt so badly?" you asked.
And I needed a while to think before I answered...

Because you can't be cheered up until you've been sad
you can't be healed until you've been hurt
you can't wipe the tears away before you cry them
you can't rise until you've fallen
you can't learn until you make mistakes
and you can't have good without the bad.
And it's going to hurt,
But it will get better.
*It will always get better

i was talking to my girlfriend last night when she asked me that, so this was my reply

#depression #life #hurt #healing #helping

Can't Believe It's Not Butter Jan 2016

lies

i hate working in customer service
because of how many times a day i have to lie
and i hate lying
how are you?
"I'm good"

#depression #lying

Can't Believe It's Not Butter Jan 2016

if i had one wish

if i had one wish to be granted,
i'd wish i could go back in time
to when you didn't hurt yourself
so i could offer you a hand
and a word of advice
"don't go down that road
because it's hard to travel
and even harder to go back"

i'm sorry you ever started self harming in the first place and i wish it had never happened

#love #wish #healing #selfharm #helping

Can't Believe It's Not Butter Jan 2016

will you...?

will you hold me in your arms forever?
will you keep me safe through the darkest of my nights?
will you catch me when i fall?
will you help me stay alive?
will you stay with me when i need you the most?
will you kiss my wounds in hopes to make them better?
will you let me cry on your shoulder if i need to?
will you put up with my insanity?
will you be the light guiding me to safety?
will you be strong with me?

you don't have to,

but even if you don't do this for me,
i'll do it for you.

#love #depression #help #healing #selfharm