When you're asked to say what's on your mind
but it will hurt the person asking,
                 what do you say?
       when you need a drink of water
        but there's never been any rain
            how do you go about obtaining?
                when you have to get away from here
       but you have nowhere to go
            where do you pull another option from?
                 how do you break from what you should
            do to do what you need to do and
                how do you know if
                             "need" is simply strong want?

I don't care any more
nor do i care any less
but i'm your lover, not your *****
and you're the reason for this mess

Parading your **** like you're in command
I have limits to your inane nonsense
I'm finally making my stand
No longer giving out to your reasons

I will stand tall, no matter what
Shape up and become a Man
Quit thinking below the waist
and treat me like I know you can

Empty vessels would clang the most
Never exercising the need to be humble nor coy
You're an underachiever with the penchant to boast
You were never a man, but a childish little boy

But, no matter what you have done or who you have become, i still see the passion within you
I see a pure love that we have created, one that is so true...
Although you have made many mistakes in the past
I am still sitting here willing to stick around for this love i know will last...

for ever and until the end
until they lay us six feet under
hand in hand as we die
i will be your lover

a lover to cherish the ground you walk on,
even when you stumble and shake,
i'll be your first in command,
because with you, there is too much at stake.
i want to be that lover,
who awaits in adoration of your arrival,
that one lover,
who loves you until our love is final.

I carved my chest and gave you this heart.
We flowed through the nile and overcame ocean tides.
A seed of bliss you planted in me and our love was born once more, leaving me scarred.
I thought you were proud and passionate but the truth was cloacked by your lies.
You dined with others while I recovered.
I resent you but appreciate the gift of new life that we have, this bond we share may never break,
for it's the only bond that makes us care.

I waited
   hoping
for what most girls would expect
      I wanted
your hand extended
or maybe the smile I love so much
   But you kept up the façade
        I've been trying to tear down
   you kept your head
                   in your little game
          you strode past
                     eyes never touching me
                you shrunk me
                      making me
                            a part of your wall
I don't know why you belittle me
with absence of words or gestures
       But I'm
just about done taking it
    because I've started to feel like I deserve this
And I don't need guilt
       added to the pile

It will hurt to let you go
          as my hands have grown around you
  but like a doorknob that's heating up
        it will hurt more if I hold on
            and since you'll never open up
and let me in
soon-  I'm going to walk away
         and leave you on the other side
     with no one to torment
      I'll be gone
            and when another innocent girl
   starts walking towards your door
            I'll be there
                   to warn her
       of the dangers you pose
            and the tools you posses
     to hurt her

"Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it in eternal life." - John 12:25

Everyone supports
or seems to approve
of any move
that benefits them
But the truth that I want you to see
is that the things that I do
For myself
   die with me
Seems like we should all realize
that no amount of hate
can                                                              ­     penetrate
a fellow hateful heart
the way to change someone
or try,
is to have them see some good in me
   some good they want to
emulate
''''''''''''''''
when you live as an example
of love
people who need to be loved
will come
   and you can put light in their life.

If you want to gain,
expect to lose
  sacrifice
will benefit you
oxymoron?
Not with God

The person willing to give
   is the one with more life to live
We are waiting
patiently
not                              chasing                        ­                               pleasure
     or the things of this world
We've seen a mere measure
                of what God has                                           ~ in store ~
   So give
           and help
and let love
                     ~~~~~~~~flow
                                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~freely

Why do I always want
more than somebody can give?
because this piece, this piece of my heart
that always goes out to everyone in need
it is trembling,
trembling
for myself