my throat aches for food
my stomach and mind shout
naysayers
heavy with
the clock, she won't stop chattering
nervous tic
aching shoulder, from laying on my side
staring
waiting for
one new message
crooning songs echo
in my shallow veins
beard of dunedin
oh to stand in manufactured rain
cleanse together
hot steam breath collide with
(well)
******* scenes dance heavily
salty
sweet soapy soft silky
soaked..
i feel so alone.
what life would crawl over my skin?
what lips caress these dead eyelids?
what fingers traces these cold curves
like tree limbs next to the curb
i am living trash

but I still want to make you
wet

but internal nearness
beauty of never knowing
(it's a sad fate)
hot twitches
the clock ticks too loudly and I can't sleep
the music runs rampant over my hot nerves
every sound
a jolt to the side
hungry ghosts nibble at my heart
my warmth
come closer dear
do you see me?
I'm beautiful?

I'm only (only)
one step away
from the plane
this dimension
we could shatter like glass
make me scream
(i know you'll moan)
-moan for me

anorexic raindrops
complain against my pane
erasure
little windy whispers
they remind me of a time when i wasn't so god ******
alone.

of us.
a gentle twist
collision
repair
fury and fondling
entwine
you can wear me
i'm a sweet lil thing

i don't care what you bruise
i don't care what i lose
(i'll let you take anything)
fierce creature
tenderly, now
save the wrecking for later
..but don't wait too long

back aching, i want more
sweat, suffering, sweet lips
the suction - when two fatless chests
press close
hair in your eyes
in my mouth, brush away
from my cheek
half-lidded peek
grasp me
i want you to hold my hand
into the mattress
breaking the ice
with every push
whisper, tickle my ear
eat my skinny bones
i feel alive
skin is numb
electric
welts across my back
nails carving our way into spine
pillow talk
the awkward walk
another cigarette

tell me i'm pretty
i think I am

unwell