you call yourself a hopeless romantic
because you've repeatedly failed at love
but you overlook the fact
that a hundred girls
are fantasizing about you this very instant

you're insecure about your looks
because you were bullied for it long ago
the memories taunt you, haunt you
yet you choose to ignore
how a hundred girls
drool at the sight of your chiseled physique

you think you're not good enough for love
that you won't find the perfect girl
you wont find perfection, that's a fact
but one day when you find the one
she will be perfect for you, and you for her
and the hundred girls will be sobbing,
hopelessly craving your love

It is in that golden beautiful moment,
when all is perfect.

Driving in a car without a care in the world
you and your lover.

Breathtaking city lights
The wind in our hair
Time slows down until it stops

Suddenly
we are in the middle of no where
just you and I
In the darkness
surrounded by the stars

getting lost into each other's eyes
brown so dark its black, pulling me in
your black soft hair
your creamy skin
your perfect eyebrows
your cute pointy nose
it all screams perfection
as if God took his time with you
perfectly drew you
with his paintbrush on his canvass

Then we finally meet halfway
our lips intertwine
in that very moment
we will feel at peace
living fully yet dead in each others arms
quiet but our love screams pure
our love so genuine
unconditional

After that moment, we face reality
you are leaving at 18 to the US
leaving me broken
taking half of me with you
We cant have what we want most
each other.

The perks of feeling everything so deeply
I get to cherish the moments
take in every feeling every impulse
engrave it in my soul
make it part of me
make it special
like you

the perks of playing with words
the perks of commanding ink onto paper
the perks of being soft, a kind heart
the perks of being a wallflower

I say that I'm happy.
I say that I'm fine.
But shouldn't it be obvious that I'm not?

Of course not.
I've been hiding my pain for years.

I think I'm a pro.
Because I'm dying inside,
And no one knows.

Pain is hidden behind a smile.
Everything else, behind a wall.