And they told me
Not to stay away

But I can't help it
My heart hurts
When I think of you

it's becoming easier
to hear your name and feel nothing.
Head and Heart fought a battle that only ended
when the Heart swelled with a Love that hurt to hold,
until the Head's gentle reminder
that this was not Love,
it was Pain.
blinding Pain.
but like all blows to the body and mind
Time crushes Pain into a dull ache, a numbness remaining
long in the Heart after the feeling has gone.
but the Head holds the knowledge that this was not Love.
it was Pain.
blinding Pain.
and it's becoming easier.

sickness and poison once ate at her chest
illness took over her kind face and she began to age before her time.
can you imagine the trauma? probably not.
the blackness and the vines that enclosed her,
the white rooms, blinding lights
the sunken face and the worry still.
all proves that she's strong, wouldn't you think?
that she's grown, an adult woman.
but she's with this demon
his hair is red because it was the devil's favorite color.
his smile is wicked and his eyes are cold with everyone he meets.
she sees this cold, wicked hell.
there's no love. only using and abusing
so may I say this
I love you
I hate him
We all do
so find that strength that beat the scariest darkness
and
Grow. Up.

God how I miss you.

You wear leather
As dark as your heart
You speak words
As sharp as a knife

You smell of cigarettes
And sometimes cologne
You wreak of Jack Daniel's
But mostly depravity

You lurk in the shadows
And prey on the young
You desire a girl
But only one night

You tell her your lies
To trick her to stay
And then like a coward
You run away