How do I make you understand.
The feelings that I struggle,
These battles, I hesitate.
My words, I don’t annunciate.
You feel my push and pull
And yet I feeling nothing at all.
Unfortunately....
To lie,
But for what reason do I have to cry.
I slam a door
The hell was that for.
One day I’m shy
Tomorrow I’m saying goodbye
Then I beg for your caress
While I scream that I imagine my carcass.
How do I make you understand
That this is how I hesitate
And forever may not be our fate
Because I laugh, then cry
And who wants a mutter nearby
Sometimes I’m sweet like blue sky
But I swear the devil sweats beneath these eye

One day, all of the 'coulds' will change into 'cants'.

I want you to love every shattered... jagged... broken... piece of me.
Love my twisted heart and tattered soul...
My restless thrashing mind, bring me peace in time...
I don’t want you to look at my crumbling mountain and flee...
Would you take the time,
To love me for me?
Or would you turn away in disgust, laugh at my weakness?
I wouldn’t blame you, nor would I be shaken...
you wouldn’t be the first to leave me with my heart
                                                    Breakin......
But please be the first to hold me in the cold and fill me with warmth...

in the silence
our thoughts are the loudest
they're the creaks of the floorboards
letting us know
we are not alone
whether the voices are good or bad
the silence really will never invade our minds

there you lay so pure with innocence
so pure until the devil put thoughts into your head
he put anxiety
he put nightmares
but here i am willing to help
your heart beat feels so fast
i look at you and tell you
inhale
exhale
you take deep breaths
your mind becomes sane again
all is fine
all is pure
but soon as we are older you see the others you want to fit in
so you loose all sanity again trying to beat your glowing down to fit in
but i look at you and say
inhale
exhale
all is fine again
we find new friends with the coming year but little did I know it was more to keep track of
more heart to keep pure
only one of their hearts stays pure no matter the devils obstacles
but for the rest I tell them
inhale exhale
inhale exhale
all is fine at least i thought
behind my back you along with everyone else except for the pure
you guys go behind my back making me think everything is fine
until i see the smoke under your breath until i can see through your excuses finallly i figure out everything
i watch you
you put it towards your lips
followed by a yolo
then you
inhale
exhale
and it is done
all goes black
and your glowing is gone.

It never saw itself as much,
             a rough coat...
  but underneath that where
             its true potential lay.

But when It looked deeper
          all it saw was conflicting layers.
    Then the unthinkable, others saw
his uses but he just cut into himself.


Tears feel as the feeling of unworthiness
             was cut away as layers fell..
but this was like every other
                     onion depressed at its worth.

but everything is special in another's eyes,
     Were all like a onion, layers of dignity.
But even though we don't see it,
      We all have a worth, were layers of an onion..