my heart still skips a beat
when you send a message,
my phone goes beep beep.

          we're just friends now,
          why does my heart miss beats
          when i hear your beeps?

                  why am i not over you?
                  why can't i stop,
                  stop feeling...

                           feelings so strong, like a thumb
                           hovering over
                                    your name.

love and hate
here or there
to be or not
be your best, try to care

what we had
i realise
means more to me than i thought

heartbroken over love
that hadn’t even begun
an ending, so suddenly sprung

my dad used to tell me about love
not to rush into it
to take your time
"be sure before you jump into it, son"

three years later
i see he wasn't just a hater
he speaks wise words
i should listen more often

i should do a lot of things
i shouldn't cling
i shouldn't cry
should i?
i should.

but i can't.

no time, no tears
i paused from the lack of you

the biggest part of who i am
lies in who i could be
but am not