there seems to be
a recurring theme in my life
i never appreciate anything
until its gone

i let
people
love
ambitions
slip right through my fingers
then years later
i say to myself
what the ****
why did i let that go
why didn't i realize sooner
when those
people
ambitions
relationships
have already flown far down the stream
into vast oceans
after i let them go

if you think about it
it would be quite silly for someone
who's already covered a great distance on their own
to swim back to save me
i know i don't deserve it
but just know
i appreciate every one of you
that i've lost touch with
for you've taught me
to appreciate
to love
to cherish
every beautiful thing
that enters my life

i know i'll submerge
into these ocean waters eventually
when my legs give out
but as i descend
into the water
ill be thinking of

all of the love
each and every one of you has
given me

all of the concerts
each and every one of you
has played for me

all of the songs
each and every one of you
has shown to me

and
this realization
you've helped me come to

the kitchen darker
your steps
planned with precision

amounts of time
pass quietly
but changes
are a different breed

the coffee mugs abandoned
still know my lips
better than yours
the humming stove
is singing songs
you used to sing to me

each day
your broken heart
collects tiny
atrocities
each day
the lamps lose more of their
forgotten dream
to shine

I plucked a bud
It emerged into a flower
I poked it in the mud
Watered it every hour

Beautiful petals,
greeted with fragrance
Soft stem and leaves,
smiled with elegance

Upon sunset, the same day
The flower hung low
As I moved away
It withered and took a bow

Next day, no fragrance
No cheerful bloom
It looked obvious on the entrance
So I plucked out to its doom

I cried,
as I shouldn't have plucked the bud
I cried,
coz it seemed unhappy so it kissed the mud

I left the flowers to be
As they bloom beautifully how it used to be
So I just visit the shrub bushes to see
The blossoms, the butterflies and the bees...

©sim