there seems to be
a recurring theme in my life
i never appreciate anything
until its gone

i let
people
love
ambitions
slip right through my fingers
then years later
i say to myself
what the ****
why did i let that go
why didn't i realize sooner
when those
people
ambitions
relationships
have already flown far down the stream
into vast oceans
after i let them go

if you think about it
it would be quite silly for someone
who's already covered a great distance on their own
to swim back to save me
i know i don't deserve it
but just know
i appreciate every one of you
that i've lost touch with
for you've taught me
to appreciate
to love
to cherish
every beautiful thing
that enters my life

i know i'll submerge
into these ocean waters eventually
when my legs give out
but as i descend
into the water
ill be thinking of

all of the love
each and every one of you has
given me

all of the concerts
each and every one of you
has played for me

all of the songs
each and every one of you
has shown to me

and
this realization
you've helped me come to