AndSoOn

AndSoOn Dec 2018

Luciole

She said: you're the light within yourself
Keep the fire burning
You are going to sparkle through your life
And I'll be there to watch

Your one true love is the one person you won't live without because you became family the minute you met.

#family #friend #person

AndSoOn Dec 2018

falling, failing ...

a night, one warm summer evening
strong lyrics, songs we listen to,
thinking about each other, not wanting to admit it

one touch, one kiss
a lots of alcohol, no judgment, candid talks
not wanting to change, afraid to loose it all

hard, dark, twisted life
pain and sorrow, kind smiles and honesty
fear, terror, panic attacks

us, in a little box, far away for life
warm and cozy, alone, safe
on one's own and cold, sad then tired

#weirdlove #complicated

AndSoOn Nov 2018

Read me, please

I hope you read me someday, if ever you do
Because I made a lot of mistakes

Like an infant learning to walk
I tripped and scratched my knees multiple times

And at least you'd understand that I am clueless

The world has been a scary place
And I hoped to protect you from its demons

I failed, ... and I am sorry
And proud

We survived

I may not be the only one to blame, but I'll carry it anyway.

#family #love #hurt

AndSoOn Nov 2018

Comforting cold

Cold adds a comforting note to tonight
It wraps around my body, taking it all in
In my basement bedroom, where I've just lost a fight
Far away from home, when I just realised where it's been

I promised, to her, to him, I would be alright
I thought I left in time, strong enough to take care of my life
Yet, I still watch the raindrops dance with the wind and city lights
And music can't cover those noises; my heart being stabbed by a knife

You used strong words that woke my poetry up, I should thank you
I packed my life and left home, twice, this past summer...
All of it for you to keep me thinking about coming back and queue
And you've known all along: for you, I'd be stupid enough to fight the other

#love #ache #heart #poetry

AndSoOn Sep 2017

To Please

I have looked, over and over,
I've screened my body
I don't like what I see.

I stopped eating and blamed myself,
It changed bit by bit
And I still do not like it...

I have been told I'm too much,
I'm too dark, too broken
I want to change my image.

I stopped talking and blamed myself
People do like me more this way
But I started writing again...

Then I understood :
I don't have to please others
When I'm the one living with myself.

#myself #proud #body #shame #blame

AndSoOn Sep 2017

Not a Bad Word

Life expect you to fit in
But you feel like afterthought
As you were not meant to win
Summer led you to a naught

Then, we welcomed the cold back
And they all left like the birds
Even though it is all black
Alone isn't a bad word

The light will come back in waves
'Til you grab it for your sake
I promise you ; join the braves
And you alone will not ache

#alone #brave #strong #summer #courage #lonely #left #black #loneliness

AndSoOn Jun 2017

I Hope

I hope you're okay
That someone holds your hand
Just to remind you
You are worth it

I hope you're loved
That someone calls you up
Just to say "good morning"
You deserved it

I hope you're joyful
That someone hugs you every night
Just to make you feel
You are whole again

I'm sorry it isn't me
But I'd be useless
To help you get up when
I'm the one who brings you down

#courage #strong #love #sad #alone #help