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  Nov 2020 a
Lydeen
Counting... Always... Counting.

A cup of herbal tea, maybe with some sugar.
If I feel up to it.

Maybe some soup, grilled cheese.
If I can stomach it.

Dinner. Whatever mom makes.
My only supervised meal.

Tired, all day... Every day.
Drowning in college papers.

The curves I worked so hard to get back...
Well. They're nearly gone.

Protruding hip bones,
Protruding collar bones,
Boney fingers,
Pale skin,
Fantastic figure and pretty ribs,
Cold toes and bad circulation.

Heart murmurs... Shaky breathing... Migraines... Exhaustion... Confusion... Lethargy... Weight loss

Shaking, Shaking, Shaking...
Shivering?

Gotta go make a cuppa, warm up a bit.

But... what's left for me to be healthy for, anyway?

I'll take a bath to warm up instead






Probably.
Being home all the time isn't doing me well... If I die, blame Miss Rona for her ****** attitude.
  Nov 2020 a
Lydeen
Puff,
Puff,
Pass.

Go on, take a

nice
long
drag.

Sadness? Anger? Anxiety? Melt,

melt,
melting
away.

Giggles bubbling in your throat.

Everything
is
funny.

To the

clouds
in
peril.
a Nov 2020
force me to be?
anything which I'm not
force me to who?
to be
anyone I'm not
yes dear
indeed
anyone but you

me dear?
she will be the death of you.

accept who is me .
find new ways to be
you with the red hair
switch and take charge.

fiery and forceful.
make the acceptance be.

me?
yes dear
It will be me
oh you.. honey dew
anyone but you.


goodbye for tomorrow
then tomorrow will do

goodbye for now
me and you
a conversation with myself
  Nov 2020 a
Peeka
I cry at night for a part of me that aches
A dragonfly friend I once had
A spirit none can break,
Is surely gone by now.

It was not a mistake
When all alone we bend rules
Though I still cry at night,
That creature was a mystical sight.

That dragonfly and me were alright.

I used to believe in a bearded man
A bunny bringing gifts at night
I believed in something far away,
Beyond my truth, a fake charade.

And now I see
The dragonfly wings beat on
Alive in my memory,
Hope for eternity.*

Your truth will set you free.
  Nov 2020 a
Traveler
The deeper the dreamer
The more dramatic
The dream
Go back to sleep
Chaotic scene

Royal gardeners
Fertilizing passions
Snakes of a fruit
Angelic reactions

Intoxicating pleasures
Resolving dissatisfactions
A collective conscience
In poetic fashion

It was good
And dreamt
Into
Dream reality
For us
Slumber on!
Traveler Tim
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