Hello Cruel world
As I woke today feeling bad and hoping that today would be the day everything changed for me its get worse, the pain the feeling that I’m no good, I’m worthless and pathetic, unlovable and I was once weak now I’m weaker and full of pain for no matter how much I love and care for you. You don’t feel the same way about me and I know for sure now after today. You hate me and to be honestly I hate myself so much and really long for die so much and wish it would come.  If only I was brave enough to end my life I know you and everyone would be so much better off with me. You don’t really care and let face it never really did why would anyone love a pathetic weak **** like me, my heart is broken, the blood is in my veins wanted to be released and how I need to released it now, it calls to me and longs to be release and i longs to released it , I can't fight it anyone the long to be gone and to release myself from society and this world is getting greater and greater.

My blood churns and swirls
As it goes down the drain.
It should hurt, it should sting
But I feel no pain.

Pleasure, warm and red leaves the cuts.
Out the slashes, comes the scars.
Self harm is not a trend.
Please, grow the **** up.

Am I the only one that has their demons feasting upon their souls?
They say it is easy to tie a noose around your mind,
To overcome the urges and temptations of ending your life with a suicide
They don't know the true pain and torment that is going on in my head
An epic battle that leaves me with restless nights in bed
"End your life already" they say, as they prey on me during my weakest hours
Sometimes I give into the voices, carrying the sharp blade to my wrist
Crying as I struggle to mutter three powerful words that keeps me going
Choking on my sobs, my lungs deflate with a desire to say that God loves me
I try to convince myself that God is trying to test my faith
And to just wait, wait and wait
Then my Demons will eventually go AWAY.....



~Imperfect Desire **

Dogs are odd funny creatures,
they're big and small with all sorts of features.

And every once in a while,
if given a smile,
They can be the very best teachers.

the sparks are dancing in the night

my fire
       bright

but slowly
       deeper in
  
   my fire-heart is caving in

my hope
      are you
              
          keeping
    my soul ablaze