I've fallen for your infectious smile,
it makes me giddy
I like my smile next to yours
I've fallen for our conversations,
the ones that make us do a double take at the time
when 1 AM rolls around
I used to wish time away,
now I couldn't possibly have enough with you
I've fallen for your eyes- which are so ******* beautiful
I've fallen for the nights we stay together. our nights
you in your PJ's get me every time
I've fallen for how we both know "I have to go" doesn't mean leaving for at least another hour
Again, wishing time could slow down
I've fallen for the way you make me feel at home

I have always hated my stomach,
but you rub it when it hurts
and even when it doesn't
It reminds me how my mother always rubbed my tummy aches away
and I've laughed more than I've cried since I met you

My hair gets so ratty,
but you remind it makes me look fierce
You touch my face the way my grandma handles her china sets
Soft and gentle, I know I'm safe

Sometimes, I watch you and I notice little things that probably don't cross your mind
They make sense to me though
You are a test I could spend forever studying

if
I had
to describe you,
in one word,
it would be
"komorebi"
the sunlight that shines through the leaves
you are always there,
even when you aren't

i used to listen to music, loud, until my heart began to jump
but after meeting you,
the loud music became too weak

I used to make wishes at 11:11,
but now I rather spend my minute making sure you remember to make your wish

you've taken up nearly every inch of my head
*i can't get your name out of my mouth since you kissed it

We finish another glass of wine and stumble to bed.  You tell me I'm pretty.  My cheeks are stained red, as if I had been in the sun all day. I lay next to you, biting my tongue to hide my body crying out for you. I tell you "I love you" by tapping your hand three times.  My mouth is trembling, you kiss it.  You say you'll never leave, but I've heard this before.  They say it's only love if the person frightens you, but I never understood this until you.  I want to feel the weight of you crashing into me, as you lose yourself in this body belonging to you, entirely. I wonder if I will ever be able to say your name without stuttering.  I don't think I will

Indeed, I love her!
But can't muster enough nerve
I had rehearse those lines
But as if someone tied my tongue

Afraid of venom of pain
Afraid to be stung
Better to hide it this way
Regret is more painful at the end

She was so alluring
A beauty that could only be mine in a dream
She was every of my fantasies
But how can I charm her
Everything about me was so simple
While she was extra-ordinary

I must act now...

Then I lied...

I told her I am a prince
That I owned the stars
But I saw her shaking her head
She was nothing compared the sun
She was nothing compared to the blue sky
I lost my self control

I began grasping her
Kissing her torridly
Even though a lot of people witnessed what I was doing
Little do I care
I want her badly, crazily...

And then laughter
everywhere....

Indeed people saw me grasping and  kissing someone
Someone in their eyes...
Was only a tree...

written: July 4, 2014
mysterious aries

Punish me for the pieces she left behind
Choke me, harder, for all the lies she swore were true
I don't want you to make me feel good
I want it to hurt, there is something so beautiful about the hurting
Pain.
Do not rub my inner thighs, dig your nails into me
Pierce my soul without any hidden meaning
Why? You often ask, why so much pain?
I am pleading to feel, I am demanding to be felt
Drown me or drown in me
Either way
I eat my words and swallow them down, never to be heard
They come back up, alongside my dinner
Raw
I want to be raw, nothing but bones
Empty both