From me to you
used to be so easy to do.
I lived in that love song
Every day was a dream
Every night the best of my life
But then those notes turned sour
our lives stored and our jealousy devoured
our relationship whole
and that love we one had had gone down
like a javelin pole.
I guess love is cruel, like an unthinking youth
it deceived me into believing you were with me in truth.
I know I committed ny sins, beared my wounds and scars
but all I gained are these new wounds and mars.
So thank you for teaching me this valuable lesson
That love is more dangerous than the most powerful obsession
You taught me jealousy can **** faster than knives
you taught me to enjoy every day of our lives

What if i were built for ***
Yours on command
******* and a small brain
pleasure me this
we'd both be satisfied
me draped on your arm
diamonds draped on my wrist
all I'd want is your hands on body
your mouth on mine
I'd breathe for you and little more
but that's not the way it goes down
tell me again how you just roll over....
while I cry curled up in in the corner
at the end of the day
everybody gets played
my eyes are wet and my body dry
unsatisfied
sweat as much as I can
for nothing
never enough and there's nothing left for you
that you can't do for yourself
you're just one more thing undone
take your rough hands and leave me alone
I'm too used to it now to even give register the thought.
Or what if we went back twenty years
When I was still clueless and crazy about you
If I'd just thought with my thighs
Blind
You filled me up for awhile
But I wanted more.
Yeah, a family and a home.
I should've backed away faster.
We should've watched that movie
What if none of this happened.
God knows I'd be drunk by now
and you'd be ******.
At least then we wouldn't realize
How hollow life is
The things we didn't get but always wanted
Wouldn't be screaming in the back of our throats
And we wouldn't be screaming at each other.
What if you said one kind word....
What then
I'll never know.
This is all you get
a woman with big brains and sagging skin
Built for dreaming
And little more.
Forever dissatisfied
No better than your thoughts on a cold night
You lose, didn't you
What if you hadn't said yes...'
What if I'd waited for YOU to ask the question?
That might have been a better forever
than this....
12/12/09
TL Boehm

~~~~There is turmoil in the turning,
      Breakage in the bend,
    Talks of new beginnings,
  Whispers of the end.

  Screams of silence so deafening,
    Lips that move without a sound.
      Never knowing what's happening,
        Feeling lost, fighting to be found.

        Something on the surface,
      That begs for something more.
    The meaning in the purpose,
  The dangle of the lure.

  The escaping thoughts of mind,
    Lost to the strong willed
      Caught up in the social grind,
        The way of life was once killed.

        Oh!, and ain't it a shame?
      Staying still, while life races by
    Losing this grandest of games
  Barely floating, while everyone else can fly...

  That's where some will find themselves,
    Arms down by their side.
      Standing here if nowhere else,
        This, their lot in life.

I refuse to beg, and yet refuse to believe
That such emotions can so quickly leave
From pure hearts and longing eyes
That swept me away in complete surprise
I hate, I writhe, I love, I long
For the only time I felt so strong
For what I lost with what I gained
Even the moments in utter pain
Over a perfect story that can’t be writ
For the perfect match, the perfect hit
That I never want to find again
I just can’t, I won’t, see other men
Yet you’re gone and in such a blaze
Leaving me dead and in a daze
Oh why oh why oh cruel time
Did you make then cut that delicate line
So that a time of gifts, love and good will
I can only want to find, cry and ****
**** the fate that gave him to me
Only to take him back so cruelly.

Melodies intertwine as these
Undeveloped minds
Scrape by in
Isolation to find some
Consolation