vinny: Poems

vinny Apr 2016

our dream died
even i
the master of fantasy
couldn't keep it
alive
it needed to be nurtured
but you power fed
and it grew to
unhealthy proportions
a tumor that had to be burned off
deeply
so all the roots
are destroyed
and it will never grow back

#fantasy #master

maxim revised

vinny Jan 2016

maxim revised

to love is to live
eloquent
imperfect
true
first pass

to love is to be addicted*
inarticulate
perfect
true
bad ***

not claiming credit for originating the phrase to "love is to live"

#love

Mentor

vinny Oct 2017

Mentor

you never lost faith
bend never break
locate the center
you are my mentor

encouraged me
be true to self
pursue for passion
not material wealth

forced me to stare
become the reflection
take what is yours
create perfection

reeled me in
for your greatest lesson
what appears to be
always in question

mind never broken
body always sore
whisper goodbye
my sweet mentor

mister screach

vinny Apr 2016

mister screach

the sun came out today
Old mister screach-ee
he burned my brain
same lesson he always
teach me
I hate him most
For that one decade
I lived 100 miles south of LA
And never went to the beach
Carlsbad Village
East Pointe Ave
Dana and *****
best neighbors I
ever had
Now I have new freaks
And i fit right in
Now when Mr Screach's
Rays are far-reaching
He always finds
my skin

i don't miss you

#sun

ms. demeanor

vinny Feb 2016

ms. demeanor

you could be laying in a gutter on the side of the road
or busted again for all I know

your usual misdemeanor
gets 90 days in the slam
and a fine of a grand
but you haven’t asked for bail as it stands

so maybe you checked in to rehab
either way its 3 squares a day
for you that’s a killer deal

we all know how you love to make fashion statements
but even I’m not sure of orange jumpsuits
*look good with high heels

#love #lost

neon orange scream

vinny Feb 2016

neon orange scream

heard you in the sky this morning
screaming my name giving me warning

don't come close i have strange diseases
coming undone broken in pieces

if you need a friend i can fill the role
tamin' pit bulls like those guys on parole

i can let you borrow my amazing recuperative powers
granted by my childhood idol best known
for breaking 400 bones

or if you need a savior i know a mellow dude though
he doesn't hold advanced degrees
but he knows a great cure for leprosy

i really don't care if you think i'm perverse
using your twisted logic in reverse

broken into a million pieces is complete to me
the most brilliant wildflower

*in all totality

give it a rest
ur risky at best

#love #broken #pain #lost

neophyte

vinny Sep 2017

neophyte

happens to the best of us
some things just slip away
before we know what's happening
it's already too late

the harder we try
never works out as planned
better to just roll the dice
see where they land

New in town

vinny Mar 2016

New in town

She said i'm new in town
can you show me around?
I like the finer things
my puppets on strings.
i'd love to get messy
with such an amazing
specimen but just looking
at you can see where
it goes...
Although you got me
thinking with my stones
I prefer more substance I need
meat on the bone-
best for you to move down
the road...but I'm all alone

Well you look sweet enough
A good ol' country girl
Hop on in let's
*give it a whirl

haha

#nothing

no sequel

vinny Jan 2016

no sequel

all too easy
to sink hooks in
weakened flesh
pathetic with sin

scrape myself up
after the hit and run
sever the strings
to end our fun

never look back
at the scene pronounced dead
pure becomes putrid
just as you said

#love #pain #lost

Note on a Windshield

vinny Apr 2016

Note on a Windshield

You told me the story
When you first met your Dad
You were 18
There was a note on a windshield
and a friend in between
It was the most intimate moment
You had ever shared with me
A moment to behold
I felt like I was there
watching it unfold
It is such an honor
to be a part of that
through your
eyes and
heart

#love

nothing like a good barber

vinny Mar 2016

nothing like a good barber

she looked up to me
in a moment of intimacy
and said oh your
growing out your hair
it looks longer
no just can't get to see
a really good barber

the good guy i found
is all booked up

everyone wants him he's
in demand
just like you

good to see you tonight are you smoking again?

#love #hate

Now your in trouble

vinny Mar 2016

Now your in trouble

Paid my dime
Went for the ride
But the joke was on me
The game stuck on repeat
The same refrain
over and over
in my brain
i.....love.....you
So apprehensive
and with lack of
commitment
like you knew
it would be accompanied by
A heavy burden
but couldn't stop
yourself

don't worry i didn't take you seriously

#painful

null

vinny May 2016

null

I made huge mistakes
yesterday
and did great things
today
it never seems
to null out
*though

#mistakes

Ol' Daddy Time

vinny Sep 2017

Ol' Daddy Time

Ol' Daddy Time provides death and decay
he will not present options
alternatively

Ol' Daddy Time has near sighted vision
confusing the past with future
potentially

Ol' Daddy Time hustles just like you
he plays a tight game
loosely

Ol' Daddy Time has no patience
for the weak he lacks
empathy

Ol' Daddy Time was busting my chops
when he put you in the road
in front of me

Optimist

vinny Jan 2016

Optimist

Waking up
Everyday
More tired than the day before
When will it end
When is relief
NEVER
Don't you get it
You created this travesty
It is personal construct

Now just own it
Don't try to pretend for one **** moment
This will go the happy path

#love #broken #sad #life #pain #lost

our little secret

vinny Jan 2016

our little secret

you witnessed my true form last night
let's try to keep that on the down low
what's a little lycanthropy between friends right?
no one really needs to know

so now it makes perfect sense
all the howlin' at the moon
it was all to protect your sanctity
while wrapped in a silk cacoon

you may have noticed all the blood
and the severed pile of hands, to boast
those are from the most viable suitors
that tried to get too close

i was but a frequent customer
serving a greater need
your most loyal for a short time
a new host now must feed

#love #pain #lost

out of stock

vinny May 2016

out of stock

you mastered the art of
selling your goods
not a bargain to be had
that was understood
yes and they bought in bulk
like you knew they would

when you ran out of stock
they identified alternative suppliers
to pull out their fingernails
with needle nose pliers

supply and demand baby
straight up for all to see
you thought you had it handled
i told you to get a business degree

please don't kid yourself
your not unique
now stripped of your powers
twitch and tweak

as you come crawling back
seething in denial

take a load off

maybe stay
with me
awhile?

over the threshold

vinny Jan 2016

over the threshold

They are all clawing at her now
Everyone wants a piece
She's at the peak of her powers
A few years left in her at least

Keep your taser in your nightstand
the new one with laser sights
things are bound to get heavy
the way you spend your nights

I'd say keep me on speed dial
but i know you never will
walking on the high wire without a net
provides your needed thrill

I lost you to those animals
I fear this may be the case
My love only was never enough
Your preference a wider fan base

So proceed down your path
a prisoner of the rooms
at least your fate is predictable
you will be consumed

#love #pain #loss

peasant's birth rite

vinny Mar 2016

peasant's birth rite

missing rib
sun burned skin
cracked at the edges
bleeding from within

just another day
boots on the ground
jerusalem cruising
wearin' the crown

plant the seed
blood spills
chill out man!!
prophecy fulfills

sacrifice for all
you get the gist
7 inch spike
straight through
the wrist

confessing sins
much too late*
forgive me father
*unlock the gate

for the one who suffered perfectly

#love

peel

vinny Jul 2016

peel

I can't taste
I can't feel
no matter how many
layers i peel

i pour sriracha
on everything i eat
it's all i can do
to make it sweet

then you came along
to quench my thirst
what a joke
it just got worse

so i'm on a new mission
just need basics to survive
sriracha for my oatmeal
to keep me alive

perfection

vinny Jul 2016

perfection

i rolled the perfect ****
fat and tight in rice paper
old school like that
never tried vapor

now just need to smoke
don't want to mess with perfection
when i see what you've become
disgusted with my reflection

spark the flame regardless
knowing the irreparable harm
still trying to obtain that high
when you first jumped into my arms

perfectly flawed

vinny Aug 2016

perfectly flawed

your flaws make you perfect
in every way
i wanted you to feel
but you kept me at bay

i've seen what lies beneath
crooked teeth
curvy spine
hobbit feet
scar on your calf
blond tuft of hair
on your lower back

your flaws make you perfect
in every way
revealing their beauty
86,400 seconds per day

perfectly perpetuate

vinny Feb 2016

perfectly perpetuate

i'll hold you to it
the things you said
did you like my cooking
or just being fed?

don't give me hope
say ya never know
if they were all lies
they were pretty good
i suppose

definite denial
mixed with bullheaded-ness
the only thing i ever had a passion for
was loving you
it all makes perfect sense

just keep it to yourself
it's already too late
my brain can't differentiate
but it can perfectly perpetuate

some things i don't even want to know it's so hard to hold people accountable for their actions and words anyways

#love #broken #pain #lost

periphery

vinny Jun 2016

periphery

i look around
see green
up
see gray
blending
in the middle
this is where
i stay

in my mind
a brief glimpse
behind
have to keep moving
before the mortar sets
i have no regrets
except
you

pineapple habanero

vinny Mar 2016

pineapple habanero

you're a sweet
weekend treat
with spicy hot overtones
and lingering aftertaste of
guilt and
overindulgence
lasting into Monday
for now at least

#love

pixie

vinny Mar 2016

pixie

i never know where she'll be
she tells me to come see her
and then says she's busy
she goes to my house
raids my pantry
stocks up on ammo
steals ****
then leaves
this me helping you
you helping me bit
is not mutual
benefit
i never know where she'll be
but i always know
*when she's close

poison presents

vinny Dec 2015

poison presents

They came out in force
Out of nowhere
Ravaged the hillside
Stripped bones bare

I left them poison presents
Embedded into flesh they consumed
They retreated back into their bunkers
Then died a horrible death

pretend

vinny Jan 2016

pretend

I am only here sometimes
When I have to be

When I can't fake it anymore
Is when I go to sleep

#love #broken #sad #life #pain #hope #lost

prey

vinny Jan 2016

prey

Lurking in the shadows
awaiting in ambush
perfectly camouflaged

Be still then
So I can act surprised

When you take the bait

prophecy

vinny Jul 2016

prophecy

she said my time will come
the basis of which is a lie
even if we crash and burn
at least i can say i tried

designed you a ring
custom made for a queen
as i marched to the gallows
presented on one knee

don't forget i'm sicilian
making offers you can't refuse
one day you'll accept
then i'll wear your noose

punkass

vinny Feb 2019

*******

I just went for a mountain bike ride
and remembered
we had always planned to do that
then i remembered
You hate me
Because i owed you something
But cant remember
What it was

pure bluff

vinny Jan 2016

pure bluff

i underestimated her
never thought an old soul punk from phoenix
could take me out
so thoroughly

now she's got me packing bags
calling lawyers and such

throwing down a royal flush
for a pure bluff

queued up

vinny Mar 2016

queued up

i cutsied my way to the front of your line
but now i can't keep you occupied
i think i bit off more than i can chew cuz
i'm way too old to keep up with you
so i'm getting off this high altitude climb
and trying my luck on ourtime

or maybe i need oxygen

#love

quicksand

vinny Oct 2017

quicksand

i tossed you a line
before you were consumed
but you kicked and screamed
and sank further

own your mess
live it for awhile
embrace the pain
walk the mile

i know it hurts
it always will

the next time
you're thrown a line
just be still

rally the bulls

vinny Oct 2016

rally the bulls

rally the bulls
with crimson capes
blood will spill
there's no escape

you told me of the matador
who gave you his word
that was his curse
felled by your sword

rally the bulls
you have been warned
there's no montado
the taurus scorned

#love

re-branded

vinny Nov 2017

re-branded

you've built quite the brand
hordes of rabid fans
amassed
frenzied awaiting
stalking
your instagram

impenetrable outer shell
created to protect
the fragile core
you'd love to forget

when it all comes undone
and leaves you stranded
alone with your truth
you'll be
re-branded

reclaim

vinny Aug 2016

reclaim

mother reclaims
prying from greedy fingers
taking back what's hers
so no traces linger
seed armies germinate
roots infiltrate
tight spaces
crack and expand
return to rubble
the creation of man's hands
is strength in compression
but tension can't withstand

the once massive now abandoned detroit automobile manufacturing plants are being reclaimed by mother nature and in less than 100 years will be reduced to rubble.

recycled leftovers

vinny Dec 2015

recycled leftovers

The scavengers will pick at her carcass
Until there is nothing remaining

And then I will be left to pick up the pieces
Of their greedy consummation
once more

I will of course recieve their generous gift
graciously
and with compassion I will welcome.the discarded shell

a sense of urgency i was not aware i was capable of
To rebuild her for them
maybe not so perfect this time

so she will be back sooner

remove all traces

vinny Dec 2016

remove all traces

i removed all traces
from the likeliest places
not from my soul though
i still need those

i threw away your toothbrush
mangled by fangs
not after i used it
to remove some tough stains

keep playing your tricks
for some they are new
some say it's too late
but i've taught Maggie a few

i'm now at peace
if its any consolation
i rejected the null hypothesis
for the mean of the population

reprieve

vinny Jan 2017

reprieve

my bag of ****
is down to dust
but there's still an edge
beneath the rust

i'm not done yet
still not complete
this path is rocky
and i have bare feet

this new freedom
               endless possibility
i embrace
   completely
until such time
   you control
            remotely

restare bella

vinny Feb 2016

restare bella

i don't know where you are
just need 2 words:

i'm ok

if i don't hear soon
2 words for you:

*stay beautiful

i hope you are taking good care

#love #lost

right hand girl

vinny Jul 2016

right hand girl

you gave me what i needed
didn't even break a sweat
not sure if you knew or not
maybe possibly if i had to bet

split tongue and breath of flame
they had been warned
thought they were badass
until you locked horns

so now i take that strength within
as i stand alone once more
you are right beside me
while i fearlessly wage war

roots

vinny Oct 2016

roots

you'll never pull out my roots
their depth is deceiving
10% of me
is all your seeing

i stay low to the earth
down in the dirt
digging for strength
deep in the hurt

i'll never bottom out
staring at the floor
it's my perfect illusion
there's a trap door

routines

vinny Sep 2017

routines

i get caught up watching
all your little routines
make the bed
fix the pillows
relentless
pristine
everyone self-medicates
for me it is you
as I scraped my pegs
the sparks flew
drop into third
back up to speed
you give me nothing
but it's all i need

scapegoat's beach

vinny Feb 2016

scapegoat's beach

i'm tired of being everyone's punching bag
learning to defend against the left jab
can almost predict the back stab*

my tyrant boss so incompetent*
unable to lead

peers who feel the need
to boast of themselves
voracious egos to feed

as i receive a mere stipend
for my efforts sweat and bleed

i'm bailing from this race
far from your lecherous reach
i stashed away a nest egg
built a fishing hut on the beach

there with my marked comrades remain
away from your weakness and condescension
we will all have our day
when you are called to account for

your sins
beyond mention

devoted to those who feel the need to condescend and build hierarchies to feed their sickness- you know who you are.

#sins #sick #scapegoat

scaredy cat

vinny Jan 2016

scaredy cat

skinny and starved
stomach growling
calm down honey relax
you're like a scared cat

even the ones
who have been around awhile
the have no feedback to provide
it's pretty straightforward:
survive

you've been to the edge
with not much damage done
looking back with regrets?
better to have none

pick up the pace
light speed is way more fun
just be prepared to ask yourself
*what have i done?

if you don't face your demons they will continue to control you
hit them head on and have no fear
freedom is on the other side i'll see you there

Scratched Glasses

vinny Apr 2016

Scratched Glasses

For fear I see the world
With clarity
I maintain my vision blurry
Glasses scratched
Creating Distractions
Fighting dragons
Not ordinary everyday dragons
mind you
This species
Are shadow beasts
Hiding and lurking
Always taunting
and tempting
Venom breathing
Talons ripping and clawing
can't be contained beasts
Just enough to keep
things interesting
beasts

#perspective #distorted

season of lies

vinny Oct 2016

season of lies

it was a season of lies was what you told me
forgot to mention deceit
i burned through 26 g's with nothing to show
but a shoe box filled with receipts

when the rains came you headed south
so the sun could caress your skin
i was left tracing the contours of your body
fingertips possessed by sin

when i saw you last night you were still wearing
the necklace i gave you when we first met
as i turned to leave i snuck in for a kiss
i guess i'll take what i can get

Seattle

vinny Jun 2016

Seattle

i'll never leave the place
with gray cloudy skies
threatening to rip open
at any time
and the sun sometimes shines
just enough to know it's there
intense brief glimpses
then disappears
and the girl i love more
than anything before
always and forever
never together
nothing is innate
life's cruelest ironies
always testing my fate
at night i'll sit on my back porch
and smoke an Amsterdam ****
listen to the world unwind
and dream of what i'll never have
it's all in my mind
the constant battle
who am i kidding
i'll never leave
Seattle

home. finally.

#love #home

Seattle bloomed today

vinny Apr 2016

Seattle bloomed today

Long ****** winter and
Not over yet
Record rainfall-
Most since 99
By a little bit
But the suns been out
Ya old mistah screech
My former nemesis
Hangin round this
Week
So like a short stout spring
In a full on compression
For about like a year
Let loose
And blew the lid off baby!!

Today was the day
SEATTLE Bloomed!

What a glorious day furiosa

#bloom