rally the bulls
with crimson capes
blood will spill
there's no escape

you told me of the matador
who gave you his word
that was his curse
felled by your sword

rally the bulls
you have been warned
there's no montado
the taurus scorned

now is time to play your game
i can read a mile away
but i caution you to test me
i have a hidden hand to play

don't dare to try and hide your flaws
i've see them all before
the stretch marks and acne
make me love you more

its not my problem you don't love yourself
that's not on me
i love you enough for both of us
why can't you feel worthy?

so pull me in close
where it's safe to hide
put your hand in my pocket
i have nothing to hide

In all your chaos
I realized serenity
The ultimate humility
Loving something so much
and knowing it will never be

just thought of a time
i could never forget
how innocent you were
when we first met

lack of human traits
were dismissed
in order to survive
i denied your existence

a future was planned
which i chose to ignore
until i realized
it wasn't just yours

just thought of a time
i'd like to forget
i once believed you were real
with no proof of concept

worship her gradient
it's time well spent
she burns hot
don't need a blanket

snuggle like a kitty
falls asleep in your arms
not for long though
always sets her alarm

baby i got some killer breakfast burritos going on
eggs sausage ham potatoes bacon
just the way you like em
total gut bombs

can i have mine to go please?
i'll keep it in my pocket to melt the cheese

why you always runnin' around?
where do you have to be at 2am?

gotta spread the love babe
*i'm not just your gem

you have a low center of gravity
when I tried to take you down
My chin found
your knee
don't call me lame
when i say
we should move on
you know it too
those days are long gone
it was wonderful back then
indian summer of 2014
just kept going it
didn't want to end
every night we grilled huge steaks
man did we eat
fit perfectly in my arms
as you fell
fast asleep

your self imprisonment
no visitation
i can't taste life anymore
need you free

your curled up in the darkest corner
of your cell
clutching the key

i was an accomplice
to your brilliant delinquency

hoping they
incarcerate me

I want my ring back
its clear we're not moving on
you don't even wear it anymore
did you sell it to a pawn?

that ring was my Grandmother's
it came from Sicily
i am the first born grandson
that's why she gave it to me

there's already a lot of blood on that stone
so the story goes
my Grandpa broke his back on the railroads
to pay for it in gold

it was supposed to go to my one and only love
that ain't you for sure
so please return what isn't yours
or be prepared for war

you gave me what i needed
didn't even break a sweat
not sure if you knew or not
maybe possibly if i had to bet

split tongue and breath of flame
they had been warned
thought they were badass
until you locked horns

so now i take that strength within
as i stand alone once more
you are right beside me
while i fearlessly wage war

I dug a hole
to fill it in
and dig again
I dig my holes
Deep and wide
To fit your promises
Inside
The ones that died
You told me
In room 216
Comfort Inn
I was your trick
you were my sin
We lied to each other
Things I can't say
As my debit card was abused
by the ATM across
the way

when did you get so picky?
I grilled you a ribeye rare
olive oil baked brussel sprouts
but you chewed them up
and spit them out
you need your greens
Greek salad with olives
and feta cheese
stop tripping Nicky
your jeans are too tight
but they come off easy
your requests are so confusing
buy me a ring
but it won't mean a thing
I can't get into specifics
but i'm questioning
what i've become
and you are a major part
of the problem

steel toes
padded knees
you always knew
how to exist with me

made assumptions
for which i paid dearly
beyond material value
your gifts to me
focus
love unconditionally
looking beyond the mirror
of my flawed exterior
into the soul within
we scrub a dub'd in the shower
listening to sugar kane
cuz i asked what stinks
answered it was you
since you've been with me

steel toes
padded knees
you always knew
how to handle me
your greatest gift
unintentionally

the sun came out today
but it was only a tease
i closed my eyes and soaked it in
until it vanished behind the trees

you were mine for a second
i thought you were the one
until you vanished behind the trees
just like the sun

i love hearing your lies
for their lack of ambiguity
i lap them up greedily
like ice cold water
from a mountain spring

i love hearing your lies
while i despise them utterly
inhaling them deeply
holding them in my lungs
until i choke

i love hearing your lies
for they are truth to me
i keep them in a locked cell
in the dark corner of my mind
23 hours a day

i love hearing your lies
for which i pay dearly
maybe if you keep saying them
they'll become reality

Thank You for showing your needle tracks
Most prefer blinders
They don't want to see their flaws
They don't need reminders

And Thank You for your perspective on riding the edge-
slow steady and cautious is not typical
I should have suspected
The answer in reciprocal

i love my vicees
they are addicted to me
Amsterdam shags
black coffee

i should try to resist you
not sure if i'm capable
to control an appetite so
insatiable

i abandon the thought
before it crosses my mind
i'm aware of my limitations
a realist you'll find

so i send another text
believing you'll reply
rehearsing my lines
knowing i can't  
say goodbye

yes i love my vicees
they are good to me
helping my mind
stay steady
i'll put you down
when i'm good and ready

I didn't intend
To break the rules
Your so called etiquette
You started it
The first night
We met
You were texting and driving
Almost got in an accident
Or was that the second date
When you wore the red dress
And those cool shoes
Left at 2 am
Wearing my tank top and shorts
and no shoes
I forget

My sweet angel has abnormal
curvature of
the spine
She says it's from carrying too many burdens
over time
She tries to stand straight
but can't align
She's tried all sorts of cures
but just makes it worse
When she tries to conceal
it's just further revealed
So she's simply resigned
to work within the constraints of
her earthly design

tried to reprogram my CPU
to be repulsed by the thought of you

and to relate
the sting of your hate
to yellow lab pups

but you can't reconfigure your brain
it just doesn't work that way

i'm hardwired to love you

*and now have a house full of seattle's finest strays

you're a badass
but i'll take you on
my physical endurance *****
but i take mental pain all day long

ask for an ultimatum
one i can't deliver
understand who you're dealing with
i'm a taker not a giver

i don't believe in failure
it doesn't exist to me
i have nothing to lose
but another
development opportunity

i fell in love with a liar
and her itchy
trigger fingers

showing me her world
the brilliance within
elevating to extremes  
then pulling the pin

i fell in love with a liar
and balanced there
for just a second

then one day she had a scratch
and i happened to be within range
she relieved my of my burdens
man i miss those chains

i'll hold you to it
the things you said
did you like my cooking
or just being fed?

don't give me hope
say ya never know
if they were all lies
they were pretty good
i suppose

definite denial
mixed with bullheaded-ness
the only thing i ever had a passion for
was loving you
it all makes perfect sense

just keep it to yourself
it's already too late
my brain can't differentiate
but it can perfectly perpetuate

electronic sequential
fuel injection
produce an alibi
you'll need protection

1200 cc evolution
belt driven
break my soul
you'll be forgiven

charge me a premium
for companionship only
reach into my pocket
feel the benjamins flowing

my 16 forty eight
it's still straight stock
now move on down the road
i need new exhaust

When she comes over for dinner
I grill some t bones medium rare
she inhales the flesh
licks the fork
and then comes up for air

She looks at me and smiles
she knows what lies beneath
before next course here please take this toothpick
there's something caught between your teeth

penne pasta with my home made sauce
salad with olives and feta cheese
chocolate chip ice cream for those who lick their plates clean
she's always one of these

your killing me serial
a foreign material
found in my substance
all over i find
still can't identify
loss of motor skills
all day long those
dark brown eyes
piercing and purring
purring and pulling
my strings

she said my time will come
the basis of which is a lie
even if we crash and burn
at least i can say i tried

designed you a ring
custom made for a queen
as i marched to the gallows
presented on one knee

don't forget i'm sicilian
making offers you can't refuse
one day you'll accept
then i'll wear your noose

mother reclaims
prying from greedy fingers
taking back what's hers
so no traces linger
seed armies germinate
roots infiltrate
tight spaces
crack and expand
return to rubble
the creation of man's hands
is strength in compression
but tension can't withstand

you could be laying in a gutter on the side of the road
or busted again for all I know

your usual misdemeanor
gets 90 days in the slam
and a fine of a grand
but you haven’t asked for bail as it stands

so maybe you checked in to rehab
either way its 3 squares a day
for you that’s a killer deal

we all know how you love to make fashion statements
but even I’m not sure of orange jumpsuits
*look good with high heels

I loved our time
before your demise
it was innocent and pure
more than we could endure
you would jump in my arms
wrap your legs around my waist
as I inhaled deeply
khali mist all I taste
I stayed in Seattle for you
left everything I knew
then our contract ended
and you chose not to renew
there was a glorious moment
trapped in your
thicket
thorns digging in deep
welcoming it
as I succumbed
peace overcame
I realized
I never
loved
myself
until
I
loved
you.

the sun came out today
Old mister screach-ee
he burned my brain
same lesson he always
teach me
I hate him most
For that one decade
I lived 100 miles south of LA
And never went to the beach
Carlsbad Village
East Pointe Ave
Dana and *****
best neighbors I
ever had
Now I have new freaks
And i fit right in
Now when Mr Screach's
Rays are far-reaching
He always finds
my skin

i rolled the perfect ****
fat and tight in rice paper
old school like that
never tried vapor

now just need to smoke
don't want to mess with perfection
when i see what you've become
disgusted with my reflection

spark the flame regardless
knowing the irreparable harm
still trying to obtain that high
when you first jumped into my arms

The role was played perfectly
a flawless execution
pure perfect fantasy
total illusion

As I surveyed the wreckage
I realized I had no complaints
seemed I had entered a vehicle
without proper restraints

your flag is unfurled
new order in the world
free from constraint
an uneasy sense
of permanence
bliss for the mind
glory
triumph
and now it is time
assume ownership
of your birth rite
what belongs to you
what is rightfully
yours

i roll my shags
fat and tight
took a lot of practice
to get them just right

i'd like an hour of your time
please forgive my persistence
as i listen to your stories
and absorb your existence

come sit with me on my back porch
i promise to be silent
tell me when they sent you to that special school
to find out why you were so violent

or when you got busted
for selling e
over 50 tabs
was that your first felony?

the one you won't tell
it's that scar on your calf
stitches for sure maybe a bite
let's save that for another night

let me roll you a ****
fat and tight
i want to get lost watching your lips move
now gimme a light

in my head
on my back
Takes my MOJO
Give it back yo
gotta shed my load
when i'm stressed
the ******* want to play
tempting taunting twisting
in my brain
need to shed this load
Best thing is to run
in the sun
until i can't breathe
like when i was in boot camp
on an island in the south
25 year ago
I ran so fast
my lungs couldn't keep up
with my heart
it was glorious
and will be once again
*Once i shed this load

heard you in the sky this morning
screaming my name giving me warning

don't come close i have strange diseases
coming undone broken in pieces

if you need a friend i can fill the role
tamin' pit bulls like those guys on parole

i can let you borrow my amazing recuperative powers
granted by my childhood idol best known
for breaking 400 bones

or if you need a savior i know a mellow dude though
he doesn't hold advanced degrees
but he knows a great cure for leprosy

i really don't care if you think i'm perverse
using your twisted logic in reverse

broken into a million pieces is complete to me
the most brilliant wildflower

*in all totality

said goodbye in a dream
so there you can no longer haunt
although we will never be
i have a better idea of what i want

i'll be standing by
but not holding my breath
got a gut feeling
it will come when least expected

learned to watch for traps
the like i've never known
hard lessons gleaned
while worshipping at your throne