vinny

Jan 2016

R

we write when we're at our weakest
we write when we've been cut open
we write when we're bleeding
we write when we're dying inside

Not all those who write are sad,
but all sad people write.

You may not agree with this, but generally, it is true.

#poem #poetry #sad #depression #sadness #depressed #writing #prose #literature #literary

Jan 2016

Fernanda Savaris

deep in my ocean

quiet chaos
resting silently inside a soul
longly lost by the spirit
that meditates calmly now
inside the dome filled by dark emptiness
it's cold, a freezing gloom
but the breeze is pleasant
it awakens my whole being
making me realise
what a fulfilled emptiness I am living

emptiness is a dark deep blue
and it makes everything so clear

#darkness #quiet #soul #cold #loneliness #spirit #gloom #emptiness #chaos

vinny Jan 2016

that's when i'm missing you

when the blades in my gut start to spin
and i lose my focus
and no matter what i do to get you out of my head
doesn't work
that's when i'm missing you

and when the long gray winter of seattle
becomes my best friend
the endless mud and rain
praying for it to never end
that's when i'm missing you

now i will be lonely
no one will ever love me like you did
no one will ever trust me with their most intimate secrets again
and i have no one to tell mine to

i don't want to move on
because i need some time
to mourn the loss
of something i held so tight
for so long

God i miss you

#love #lost #mourn

vinny Jan 2016

loss of control

Trying to control me
Your hooks in my back
I rip them out
You stage another attack

Now I'm gaining control
With my hooks in your brain
Soon you'll be begging
To never stop the pain

vinny Jan 2016

when she's off her meds

when she's off her meds
i cant take her out in public places
she's not good with people
tends to rip off their faces

when she's off her meds
it's so hard to breath
the air is so wretched heavy
lingering with her disease

when she's off her meds
she is uncharacteristically sweet
you won't know what hit you
until your front teeth chip the concrete

so the next time she goes off her meds
i will not fight
just relax as the hooks sink in

when she draws close to deliver the final blow
i will wait for the perfect moment
and pull the pin

vinny Jan 2016

don't apologize

don't apologize for giving me
precious memories

i knew what i was getting into
from the start
but you said two things that i can't shake:
at the Cuban restaurant you said you never know
what the future brings
and just now you apologized that things went beyond
what you can offer me
at this point in my life

i don't know maybe it's wishful thinking
or just a game
but you never really *******
always straight up
for the most part

don't apologize for giving me
precious memories

either way we are still friends i think that's how we left it so please let me know when you're back

vinny Jan 2016

goodbye

she wears the necklace i gave her
almost every day
but it lost control
don't be sorry
its not your fault

just took it too far
past the point of broken hearts
i didn't know any better then
i don't know about you
but i was in love with life
for the very first time

you never ended it though
and i dont know why
i've tried to make it easy for you
so many times

or maybe you did
and i was too blind to see
either way we should do it clean
so here it is officially:

we will never be

never

*be

it was over before it even started

#love #lost