Turned pain in to a beautiful art.

why do you go away from me?
In front of my eyes, you're leaving me
My heart, I couldn't bear the pain
Inside me, you stay like you’re insane.

I’m giving you this one chance.

Just answer me why you did this.
I’ll forgive you.

You with colors bright
You’re the shooting star that dances at night
You that ends me a perfect day
Your view that takes my breath away

You’re the flower that glosses in the morn'
The smiles on the faces, when viki baby was born.
The elegant flows of my dancing gown
The shimmering jewels on a Your golden crown


When it comes to God's questions, I’ve seen a few,
but I've never seen anything as beautiful as you.

"Please stay with me, baby!!”
You were walking so fast.
Too fast for my little feet to keep up.
Was it that easy for you to leave me?

You heard my tear-filled screams, but you never stopped.
You just kept going.
Farther and farther away, not even trying to get one last look at me.
I punched, pulled, and pushed trying to make you stop.
You didn’t.
You just kept going.
Leaving me behind.
"Please don’t leave me!"

Pain.
I remember it too well.
The heart throbbing pain.
I watched as you left.
My eyes were wet.
Yours were dry, cold.

How long do I have to wait for you before you realize that what you did was a mistake? What was the reason you stayed away for so long?
Was it that you don’t want me anymore?

Since you left, I dreamed of your return.
The day you would wrap me in your arms and whisper in my ear,
"I'm sorry for what I did. I promise I will never leave you again,
my baby."
Then I wake up, hoping to see you.
Hoping that it wasn’t all a dream.
But reality soon caught up, and the dream quickly died.

I remember all the tears I had rushing down my face
as I saw you leave me to never return.
I'm so incomplete without you, I need my baby back in my life.
You deceived me, you said you would always be there.
You pinky promised.
You broke your promise.
How can I trust you again?

Do you still think of me as your "little girl" or
a baby you never loved, a sister you could leave behind without a single goodbye in the blink of an eye? I wish you were here to watch me grow up.

"I miss you so much! Won’t you please come back to me, Viki?
I just need to see your face one last time."

“Hey, baby even if you don’t love me I will always love you no matter what happens.”
I bet you didn't even think about how I would feel when you left.
No, you only thought of how I’m going to handle myself when you’re gone.

You missed all my birthdays, first dates.
Did you know that I would wait for the notification to see your messages. But there never was.
I eventually stopped going, knowing nothing was there for me.

Baby, I still need you. Please, come back to me!

And yes, it feels like I’m falling apart
trying to hold everything together

I’m strangling too much
Just hoping that you’re here to tell
WHAT’S RIGHT & WHAT’S WRONG.

I miss ur
“Thaiveseithe la bb”

I used
him
as a
pillow
to cry
on.
I found the deepest honesty
In the wild
Raw
Side of humanity
The side that communes
With nature
That I can’t feel anymore
Through touch and gesture.

You taught me how to
be the princess inside a cave,
But not to build a cave
when I'm out of it.

Watching someone grow isn’t easy.
Watching your own daughter grow is worse.
But I can’t say how much of a strong woman you are ma. I know I’m one lucky daughter of course.

You often say “I’m going to die & im going to die”
I try my level best to make fun of it but deep inside I’m hurt. I’m so hurt that I can’t even tell you.

I lost the biggest part of me a year back. Now I only have you left.
You’re my best friend, my girlfriend and my wife.
What am I without you?
I just love you so much and that is it.
I need you throughout my life.
So just please don’t blabber about dying anymore.

Cause if you die I die.

Some things wouldn’t have
gone the way it gone
if you were here

Your lost is not something to be sad of,
It’s something to take heed of.
And as long as I’m here,
You will not be six feet under.

With these hands,
I intertwine yours with mine,
our hands fit perfectly like we're made just for each other.

I speak nothing but the truth,
I won't forget the little details inside of you,
this one beating heart,
it pumps and pumps letting butterflies take over as long as we’re together.

Your words felt like home
Those few VM of yours that I won’t mind to play it repeatedly
Just like how I watch you daily.
♥️

I see you here and there, but couldn’t feel your touch anywhere.

What you would have done if I left you the way you left me?

I know that your love is beyond your life.

I just miss❤️

you
promised
"forever"
it ended
11 months ago.

Lenses, eyeliner, eyebrow liner, lipgloss, lipstick, mascara, blusher, contour, highlights, heels, dressing senses, conduction;
It will all be impossible without you.

Happy 44th Birthday ma!
I truly love you♥️

What kind of relationship do we have?
Not for a moment can I stay away
I live everyday for you
I dedicate all of my time for you
I don't want a moment without you
On every breath is your name.

Wright Viki?
It’s living for someone else's eyes
I guess death is not the lack of life;
Only to **** me
You gave me life

You and I were there
Thinking about love and affair
Now we're here
Love and tricky cheers

You will continue to suffer if you have an emotional reaction to everything that is said to you.
True power is sitting back & observing things with logic.
If words can control you, it means everyone else can control you.
Breathe & allow things to pass.