Wash away the past,
it can be liberating.
But hold onto me.

No one feels like family
Not even my own kin
Not my friends
Not my coworkers
No one
Your family is supposed to be who you turn to when you need help
If you're not willing to go to them
They aren't your family
They're just people you grew up with
Who kept you alive
Feeling alone is terrible
Someone once told me I'm strong
I disagree
I'm weak
A coward
Stubborn
Arrogant
Its exhausting being at this alone
One day I just hope I run out of gas
Miles from home

You've made me laugh
You've made me cry.
But today I looked into your eyes.
Today I really saw you.
My whole world stopped,
And I let out a loving sigh.
You've saved me once or twice.
From myself I might say.
It's not easy loving me,
But you've done it so easily.
You've seen my darkest side
And you've heard my deepest secrets.
Still you hold onto my heart.
Even when you didn't always want to keep it.
I don't deserve you, love.
I probably never will,
But you're here with me still.
I've shoved and I've pushed
Scared of a love I've never had.
But you're still here with me.
You've finally made me see.
I'm grateful Just to have you.
You have loved me through and through.
The love that I owe you is long over due.

I
Like to
Think about many
Odd oddities about my
Life. It is simply strange
How life works when it has
To do with the happy things. I
Like how it somehow works out for me
In different situations. Mainly the ones that are very
Important. I love life as much as video games. But,

Life can sometimes be the worst phenomenon to exist ever.
It can throw many unforgivable problems that yell at
You. Little problems can turn to massive boulders
On your shoulders. Then those problems make
You question any movement you start
To ponder about. You don't
know who you really
Are. That's why
I hate
Life.

...

Darker than black
Newly folded laundry in stack
It's 19th of may
Everything went astray

I've searched beyond invisible lines
Reminisce the joy of Valentine's
Until it went a little strange
Distorted, glitch of change

Ten feet stepping on the wooden floor
Sneak in silence from backdoor
My mom's tulips still fresh on the table
My dad's toolbox now disabled

Visitors are kinda too funny
They have unique way of greeting my family
I noticed they had many luggage in them
I wonder how they come here without a car then

Tonight, the cold wind blows
Colder than a frozen rose
I missed the oven-fresh pie
Mom's apron is now red-dyed

Ronan loves watching tom and jerry
Today he watched live episode of same story
I run to him like how we play with our husky
But I tripped off and spill the glass of rye whisky

They help me to clean the mess
All I wanna do now is rest
I drained my energy playing
The game where I know I'm not winning

The guests are now leaving with smiles
Their boots stained linings of tiles
I couldn't wave goodbye
I'm too busy to give a sigh

It's cold here behind yellow light
uncomfortable and slightly tight
boredom reigns over here
still waiting for cops to be seer