without a thought
i began this life
somethings sure
to come to light
an't got no lover
an't got no wife
this is not
a rant oh no
nor gripe
deep insight
can free the soul
i loved her more
then you could know
perhaps we met
in a life time past
happiness
wasn't meant last
and yet
we spiral down
and start again
for next time
we are bound to win

I love to write
Simultaneously
I hate to read

I'd rather listen
As my muse
Breaks free

Under water
Balancing breath
Deep in sleep
Closer to death

Chasing passion
Down endless
Rabbit holes

I love
To follow
No matter
High or low

And when the trip
Comes to an end
I suppose
I'll come back
  As a Poet again...

Everything is beautiful, as far as I can see
Everything is wonderful when my eyes bleed

Everyone is casual, sifting stems and seeds
Everyone is pleasant, spirits soaring free

Everything is peaceful when life is but a dream
Everyone is kicking back, hear the eagle scream

Roll another dream, smoke rings fill the sky
Pass it to the left,  never pass it by

Everything is kosher, watch the children climb
Everything returns to sources in it’s own time

Everything is beautiful, as far as I can see
Everything is wonderful when my eyes bleed

Quite astounding
Actually
Behind eyes
Beyond perception
The seeds of darkness
Flourish

Nurtured in
Regrettable
Resentful
Irreversible
Fates

Sometimes it's hard
To see in the dark...

TIME JUST FLIES OR SO IT SEEMS
HER EYES HAUNT MY RESTLESS DREAMS
FACES FADE, MEMORIES BLUR
WAKE UP SOAKED, TOSSED AND TURNED
DREAMS SO TWISTED I CRINGE IN SLEEP
INTO MY SUBCONSCIOUS ONCE AGAIN SHE CREEPS

SUCH IS THE PRICE I'M FORCED TO PAY
FOR LEAVING HER IN SUCH A WAY...

It open some of my deepest wounds
Loss of freedom in a dreadful tomb
Days gone by in a hazy blur
Doom and indignity
evenly paired…

Have you ever seen a ghost
Home alone at night
Have you ever seen the world
Through clear nocturnal sight

Have you ever peered through darkness
To see the other side
Have you ever felt such acceptance
Beneath a moon lit sky?

We define things which others cannot describe
We hear the whispers from the other side
Restless voices
Spirits in the wind
So safe and sound
At least we pretend

The days shall we rest
The nights we shall roam
The creeps be no longer creepy
The night becomes our throne

Relax my love
Just try to breathe
I feel your unrest riding on the night
I can sense you flying
Thruway through my skies

Your psyche cycle stalls
Your engine starts to climb
All your fears and worries
Entangling my mind

Hold on a little longer
Your heart was meant to change
I shall help to anchor
Your restless growing pains

I defied the principles laid down before our race
I chose to bring about change at a considerably faster pace
By searching beyond these limits of our terrestrial bounds
I dared to seek out the place where gods could be found

I questioned those who believed without surety
This was surely a path of reverse polarity
With such questions posed they became predisposed
With that familiar look of un-clarity...

The higher you reach, you begin to fall
The farther you fall you become out of reach
This may sound absurd but it's not written in words
That can only be deciphered by the meek...

The answers are not what's important to know
The questions you put forth can free your soul
From a world of fear and superstitious ties
Piece and clarity are waiting inside...

Do I know crazy
I know him well
Too much time
In and out of hell

Even the strongest
Can't keep
The sky from falling
My motor's running
My mind keeps stalling

Here I am
If there’s anything you need
My heart is racing
My brokenness is in the lead

Assumed to be evil
Always lurking in the dark
Creepy is the opposite
Of what we know by heart

From a thousand miles away
Worldviews appear unclear
You can no more see through my eyes
Than I can understand your fears

I can only ensure you
There's no bears in here
...

If like me
Your first love has failed
And inevitably
Your second
And perhaps third as well
And now thick bittersweet blood
Pumps through your veins
Take my advice
Don't give a care
Leave not the tear that stains
"For our kind"
Nobody's praying!

Every time I’m alone
I get the overwhelming urge to write more poems.
The creative vibe adds to this experience of joyous content.
The contemplations of life
I do not lament.
I let my spiritual intelligence
fill my heart with the math of love.
This extends far beyond the physical hug.

I wish the world
Could be my guess
Far more than I could feed
I must confess
And wouldn't my five acres
Be a mess
But surely it be worth it
Such an under thought-out quest
All those suffering
Would be
Finally blessed
.....

So many
My love
Have longed to hear
What I whisper
In your ear
To soothe your soul
And seethe your sweet
Releasing your heart
From misery
How many my love
  Yet still you bleed...

In days cut short
Of warn out soul
While immortality
Insist on growing old

Through tired eyes
Too dim to see
When from this evil night
My soul shall flee

How quickly
A simple smile fades
There shall be
No comfort, nor praise
Ridicule nor disdain
No eyebrow raised
In the bitter end
Of my days

All but love
Shall not delay
When the spirits
RIP my soul away
The harbinger's words
The curse of life
This has been a losing fight

There shall be
No comfort for me
No I don't believe...

I don't always mean
These words I say
Nor these things I recklessly do
In the pitch dark of night
I suddenly awake
And frantically reach for you
Somehow you're still here
Then I realize my greatest fear
To be alone in this broken world
A single man without a girl
So I must admit
I need your love
Even though
I abhorred the crutch
Nothing is as it's suppose to be
Thank  god
For cursing me!
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No eye can see to
The core of what’s beneath
Below the shadow figures
Sticky fingered thief’s
Clawing out from under
Climbing up the spine
No heart can ever
Help from being blind
.....

It was clear as day
That look in her eyes
She surely found me attractive
But our values did collide

For her, materials mattered
A bit too much for me
My value system is tied
To a life of simplicity

So here I ask you poets
Do you really give a ****
About the name Ethan Allen
On your dresser or nightstand

Such high maintenance
Doesn't matter if you're rich
Still I am no longer driven
To scratch such an itch...

I am disturbed
My mind is but broken
I stare at the wall
My thoughts are all frozen
Shell of the man I use to be
Lost in my brain
I'm no longer me
......
Where did I go
Who really knows
Your only talking
At my ghost
They won't let me drive
Or stay home alone
All my people
In a nurse's role
......
I long for my old life
While I just let go
No longer me
Can I borrowed a soul
......

Oh what pleasures holds the great unknown
Yet here on sand I built my home
In the eye of storms that never subside
And less the glory that feed my pride

I used to stare through gleaming eyes
Now dull and dim my tear ducts dry
Tomorrow's dreams all but gone
My lady no longer sports her thongs...

Come on everybody
Heed my words
We're all going to get
Our deserves
Change in the weather
It's getting cold
Human suffering
Is a bleeding soul
Open the boarders
Let them in!
Please, I beg you
We can't afford
Anymore sins...

To tell me twice
When eye's have said enough
I've read between the unwinding lines
I've no need for less than love

The twitch, the look
Uneven flow
Rest assured
I already know

  And be sure
That they do too
The rest is up to you
Unto thine own self be true
....

It's lost on me
As you can read
I have no need
For misery
All that's blue
Is but a sea
Beneath the waves
Where we can't breathe
So fill my sails
With thankfulness
Come navigate
These sea's of bliss
And bring about
A better days
Where you and I
Can ride the waves
Of happiness
And piece of mind
To weather all
The storms of time...

Perhaps I prefer to play the ghost
To only be seen by the ones
I love the most
To limit the stress
Of life’s bumpy roads
I won’t let bad take its toll.

(But that’s not how I use to roll)

Life’s beauty fulfills my quest
A peaceful life is my success
There is no sense in worrying
Simply stay out from under the gun
If there’s nothing chasing us
There’s no need to run.

Ya but what if....
What if it's much more complicated
The distance to truth
What if it's equal to eternity
How long shall one search
Didn't all the paths lead here!

Are you human
In our eyes
What part of you
Refuse to die

Unquestioned morals
Of those who came before
Do you believe in invisible things
Do you believe in war

Are you worthy
In our heart of hearts
To speak of right
And wrong as an art

Is there room
For us to grow
Is there acceptance
In your role

Are you hungry
In the nights
Are we human
In your sight
???

Where do they go
Those rats in the alley
Up into cracks and holes
On into hungry bellies
Cockroach infested
The walls are at war
Damp musty mildew
Deep black mold spores
Down in the basement
A noise never heard
Perhaps a snake, lizard
Frog or some type
  Of ***** bird...

Whatever I heard
Where ever rats go
You won't find me
hanging out
In the old ghetto
No, not no more!
.....

Herbicide rich farm lands..
Pesticides on every lawn..
Long live the American dream!
Capitalism is a long lost song..

Roundup sprayed ski slopes and golf course turfs!
Bucket list of old rich folks dying of cancers..
City water that stinks..
The ink of our receipts..
Testosterone levels,
rapidly deplete..
Year’s of no regulation,
Aluminum in the sky..
They obviously want to make sure…
No one gets out alive!!

We face death every day
and we live.
When we finally die
perhaps that’s the gift.

The flowers grow wild
in my world.
She says they’re weeds
but she is but a girl.
I reckon she’ll have to come back this way, to learn how to break free of this maze..
Look at the time!
We have to go,
live out our poetry
with all we know.

Beyond politics
We as a poetic society
Possess gifts
A large verity
Arrangers of word
Raw emotional avengers
Vicariously we live
Safely as pretenders

Close the mind
Let the thoughts flow free
The world still exist
  Outside your zombie
Don't bother breathing now
Your far too late
Our earth is dying
While she's still being *****

Politics they never trend
Fantasy certainly
Will always win
That is
Until the bitter end!

And when I'm finally
Forced to fade
Slight of minds
No longer vague
Inconclusively
Placed on trial
Paradoxically wearing
  A black tooth smile...

Hear no evidence
Of my rebellious heart
Encipher not
My darkest art
For I have loved
And lost it all
Forgive my words
And my resolve
....

Do we cross a point of no return
Do we step beyond to live and learn
If evil’s tempted by all that’s good
Perhaps the scheme is misunderstood
Our demons fights for love within
It’s a consuming flame that never ends
...

No one is without
The trickery of mind
Its grasp beyond grip
Subliminally defined

No hearts above
The trickery of love
And no mind's free
Of influences above
Or as prescribed
In meditation
Or good drugs

Relax your fist
These imperfections
Are gifts
Like the rainbow
After a storm
Equality a distortion  
A psychological extortion
Of dispositions
We feel are norm...

Storm on my horizon
A change in weather grows
For me there is no shelter
These cold fronts bleed my soul

If only I could grasp
The kingdom come my way
Yet I find no shelter
No matter what I pray

So let those voices echo
As the wise and mighty fall
Suffering beyond the shelter
Of those superstitious laws...

I am not my story
the narrator past
obviously his suffering
was never mean to last

no one bullied me
they helped me forged a man
into a lover of life
a healer of the land

I have no regrets
no blame to invest
I’d actually like to thank
the universe for this test

we didn’t come from our parents
we were only passing through
I’d like to thank them both
for the hell that they once knew

I am not a story
trapped within a book
I am a poet
the past is what it took!

I keep no medals
Nor pictures of back then
I'm no longer a warrior
I have no wish to defend...
In fact, I'm forced to run
Unable to hide
Cameras and drones
Fill my minds eye’s

(Truth is)
I once saved my ship
From sinking
I found a hole
And stopped it from leaking
Somebody up on deck
Got the credit
Even the ships new paper
Refuse to edit

I never needed
A notch in my gun
When the cops yell stop
I'm the first to run
I've done more time
Then I care to claim
I've always been innocent
I just keep getting framed

And still
My love is as big
As the setting sun
If you cry out
Here I come
Yet I no longer feed
On excitement
And speed
A warrior
I no longer wish to be!

I don’t pretend to be a writer
I am not hidden behind my words
I can’t complicate my expressions
I won’t embrace my lower fears

I will not be writing a book
only a handful of songs
Life is full of beautiful music
I invite you to sing along!

It's quickly unfolding
the death of this festering paradigm
reviling the corpse of indifference  
Change come hard
while the opposition sleeps
time is a monster in a dream
wake up!, wake up! is what it screams.

I've had enough
of all these living
breathing distractions
fused to my synaptic reactions
reminding me that I am but one
the leash of realization weighs a ton
in harmonicas hormonal perfection
it's easy to lose an election
It's a beautiful day
I never want it to end
but I lose my balance
when the distractions set in
......................................

Things have been rearranged
There're not as they were
Universal disruptions
Right here on earth
Memory recalls
Stripped from our minds
Where ever life leads me
I note it in rhyme!

In my next breath
I'll be choking
Taken in a deep hit
And just keep toking
The words will flow
In a peaceful rivers
Warm at night
Not a single shiver
It helps clear crazy
Out of the way
Dear Doctor
Keep those pills
For another day
..................

Shall I be happy because you smile
Or sad because you frown
All the anger that you harbor
Shall I let it bring me down

Governed by the rules of existence
We are one yet divided
Stuck with each other in this realm
Such is coincidentally pre-decided

Seems that we are bound to this dimension
And death is but a lie
Fabricated to motivate us
Causing us to arrive

Perhaps we’re recycled spirits
Living lives without end
Or merely momentary life forms
Being judged by our sins

Yet we are all here together
In this universe quite naïve
Yet hate is not genetic
And true love does not deceive...

Take a moment
Imagine a time
The vanishing
At the end of all lines..

Can you feel your heart slowing
Did you enter divine?

Contemplation of existence
As the guts sway and swerve
Beyond all resistance
Beyond all deserves

Within a Galaxy
Upon a speck
The span is endless
In the mind of depth
Catch the expansion
With every breath
There can never be
  Nothing left...

I try not to believe in things.
Instead, I observed things with no preconceived judgement.

I believe my truck could still be in the garage where I parked it.

I believe there’s a ghost of a chance that anyone can avoid betrayal.

I believe in the end it doesn’t even matter.

I believe when ignorance ends knowledge begins.

I faintly recall stepping out of my trance,
walking towards a man with a gun.
But I felt no fear saying “shoot me!”
Behind the gun man
a shadow within a light within a shadow.
I felt as if I could pass straight through.
When the bullet pass through me
I fell to the ground,
into the arms of the Earth Mother.
It was not yet my time.

I pretend
Everything is fine
That's the secret
That gets me by...
But truth is lately
Things been really ******
A serous lost of love and trust
There's a hole in my soul
The place where my life's blood flows
And empties alone...
Lost in the night
Even reason's teeth
Enjoys a bite
Still I pretend
Everything will be alright!

It's not really that deep
These uneasy feelings that I keep
Are more or less on the surface
Of the ocean that's trying to drown me...

Shocking at times
These words that I write
Politically correct
Are the stones in my flights
The harbinger of hard word
A caller for change
Take a step back and focus
We're one and the same!