I want to disappear into the soul of the earth,
To escape and run away...
Away from the human world
Away from the commotion
Away from the ignorance
Away from the crowded shops
Away from the faces that cry pain
Away from the eyes don't see beyond the surface
Away from the voices that bite at your ears
Away from the deeds that **** your soul
Away from everyone
Away from everything
Away from the shouting,
the weeping,
the toxic positivity,
the shallow conversations.
the hollow humans,
I want to leave.

Looks like I'm here again,
With the flowers,
With the trees,
With the cotton coloured clouds,
With the afternoon breeze.
Looks like I'm here again,
With the wet sands of the shore,
With the silent waves of the torperous sea,
With the grey sky,
With me.
Looks like I'm here again,
With the tick tock of the clock,
With the foggy windows,
With the creaking door,
With the wooden chair by the bed.
Looks like I'm here again,
With her hand in mine,
With the smell of her hair,
With the sound of her voice,
With the sight of her smile-
It's 6 am, I better go wash my face.

Here I am.
Dressed in white.
Almost in heaven.
All alone.
With myself.
With the moon.
With the stars.
With the world.
With the gods.
With the sky,
With the sun.
With the ocean.
With the spirits.
With the angels.
With the beatles.
With the kings of the red flowers of love.
With me.
With you.
With everyone.
With no one.
With the company of a blinding light.
A bright light.
A really really bright light.
The brightest light you could ever imagine.
I do know how to love.
I do know how to breathe.
I do know how to care.
I do know how to run.
I do know how to fly.
I reach my arms like long and bold trees to the heavens.
This is it.
I am me.
I am me.
I am me.
I then woke up and went to the bathroom.

Oh how beautiful it was to walk through the leaves of the sun.
Oh how beautiful it was to learn it was possible to love you.
Oh how beautiful it was to watch you form into someone you're not.
Oh how beautiful it was to watch you see nothing but love inside me.
Oh how beautiful it was to live in the days you still believed in me.
Oh how I wish I could come back to those days.
Oh how I wish I could crawl back to the you I once loved.
Oh how I wish I could just travel back in time, to save myself.

If any of you are going through a hard time and want to get things off your chest and talk about it do not hesitate to message me, in this community we must all look after one another, even when we're stranger on two different sides of the world.

A romantic would love you,
Someone from the 19th century would too,
A kind old man would love you,
A child's pure heart would love you,
My grandmother would love you,
And I love you too, sometimes...
But please stop chirping so much at 5 am,
I'm trying to sleep.