Blissful silence in the dark
Breathing sounds could be heard from afar
As i got closer it got louder
In the pitch black room
All around me was darkness
The breathing got rougher and louder
With a mourn mixed in here and there....
I could feel strength leaving my body
Daring myself to move closer


In the pitch black room
I could make out figures
Looking like an enormous beast
Devouring its prey
Swallowing it whole
I lost the strength to run
Or scream
A shouting heart jolting my trans mind
Like a rolling rock on a steep *****
I Moved forward


In the pitch black room
Right in-front of me ......
A scene i couldn't fathom
Two silhouettes panting and mourning
Even without a clear picture
Even without the sound
One couldn't help but swallow a mouthful
Of saliva
This hunger inducing scene played out
As my heart started racing
A bright light flashed blinding me


In a now bright room
The two seemed unaffected
Like the illumination from the light
Wasn't visible to them
I could clearly see a figure
A figure so thirst inducing
One could mistaken it for aphrodite
And wen she mourned
A sweet melody
Compared to that of the music of apollo
Lost in the beauty of this beauty
And the melody she was creating
I heard a name
As she said it again
I opened my eyes


Opening my eyes to gaze into hers
They seemed to blaze with a flame
One that felt inextinguishable
One that would devour any soul that came close
This beautiful yet dangerous flame
I knew if i went close there is no coming back
Yet a deep sense of belonging came from within
A cold yet familiar sensation was flowing through me
She moved her down my chest
As it moved i felt it.....
For the first time
Pure craving
Like an electric current running thru me
Leaving chaos in its wake


Like a drum-roll
My heart cried out
With it melting the cold sensation
Like a beast unleashed
My body was brimming with strength
Moving my hands towards her
Like a black hole
Like Jormungand
Every cell in me was screaming
Shouting
And scratching
Trying to heed her call
Getting ready to devour her
Swallow her whole
N show her how deep the abyss went

İ woke up with an aching heart
Soaked in a flood
Only to realise it was salty
İ could feel my heart strings tightening
What really happened?


Tip toeing down memory lane
İt started flooding back
Unlike the one i woke up in
This one was bitter
What the hell is going one?


The bitter taste in my mouth lasted forever
As my chest became tighter
Gasping for breath
As if fighting with my body
İ remembered
İ now knew what had happened.


The foggy memory had cleared
As bright as day
For all to see
The reason for my tears
The reason for my pain
The reason i woke up half alive
İ had lost you
Without word or warning


The nights became darker
No stars no moon no light
The days became unbearable
As if left in the middle of a Desert
İf i couldn't have have you
Then death would be my solution
And as i jumped off a cliff
Just before i hit the ground
İ woke up soaked
İn a sea of tears
But at least in this life i still had you
And I smiled
What a awful nightmare

It had been a while
Even tho no tears were shed
I could feel it was a wound tt would possibly leave a huge scar
I had no bad intentions when i said it
I had no ill meaning when i did it
I did it out the pure feeling of longing
Out of the innocent feeling of yearning
If i had to mke an apology
I would be apologising for loving a woman like a lil girl


It was all love at first
And that love kept growing n spiraling out of control
Every Time my hrt beat ...... i swear i could feel it ...... as if its about to break through the cage
Every Time i put my hand on my chest it was as if im trying to calm a mad dog down
A feeling i loved n hated
Cause Every Time it reminded me of how deep it was
How deep the wound was gonna be
As i kept replaying the worst case scenario in my head
And making more rush decisions
In a sad attempt to protect my heart


In the end it didn't hurt
At least not at the moment
But the longer i sat there the more i could feel the wound opening
As if its about to rip my hrt in 2
I clutched at my chest
Held on for dear life
The laughter echoed in the empty starry nyt
Reminisce of a broken heart
No, a broken mind
As i sat there feeling regret from the words protect your heart.

I had a dream
A beauty unlike any other
She had had the eyes of a goddess
That seemed to see thru me
As if I was an open book in front of her
I looked into her eyes
And I couldn't help but smile
As her sweet voice rang in my dream

I had a dream
The only time I felt at peace was next to her
When she held me I could feel all the weight on my shoulders vanish
Atlas reincarnate
Her warmth gave me the feeling of home
And  her sweet voice rang in my dream

I had a dream
She was in tears
My heart fell apart
When I realized I was the cause
My very being trembled
For no reason in the world would make me hurt her
I could feel that my cheeks were wet
When I looked down to see
Her doubting voice rang in this nightmare

I had a dream
I had her in my arms
She felt vulnerable
For someone so strong
Leaning against me for a change
My heart skipped a beat
I felt loved

I'm having a dream
Where home is her
My sweet dream
How much I care for her
How happy I am
How I don't want to wake up
Mon ange hold me forever

with a flick of his wrist
they danced around
in the palm of his hand
stood an army
awaiting orders

just the tremors of his voice
they trembled
on their knees
bowing down  to their king
awaiting orders

a king of his own design
toying with lives
a chef and his ingredients
the preparation was done
the game had began

the sun no longer shined
it became dark
the whole world was about to feel her wrath
as her screams could be heard
her fury could be felt

crackling sounds of lighting could be heard within
the dark cloud grew larger
one look and one could tell a storm was brewing
what had seemed like a sunny day turned dark and solemn
one push
one button
and over the edge, she goes

final stroll
the noise around him drowned her cries
he couldn't make a word of what she said
it seemed the storm had passed
closing his eyes to breathe
with a shatter, she broke
and all hell broke loose