Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
TheSanguinary Sep 2021
A stinging sensation
Similar to that of a bunch ats having their way with you
A burning unscramble itch
Simlar to that of a couple bee stings
The uncontrollable feeling of anger
Like acid meet metal
Fumes and bubbles
Smoke everywhere
Ready to ignite watever comes close
This burning hot feeling
This uncontrollable yearning for something that someone has
Could it be?

An ordinary morning
Noise everywhere
Not wanting to get out of bed
An errie feeling crept up to me
Like a sense of dejavu
Telling to stay down
Dont get up
It felt like a thousand bugs
Crawling under my skin
Wat i opened my eyes to
Is this the reason why u shouldn't check your phone in the mrng?
Could this feeling be wat i think?

Wait.....it could be it
But why
I hve no reason to be
We never had anything to begin with
Then why does my heart feel like this
Like a rag doll..... bound in twine
Untill the thread is almost cutting in
Then like a yoyo
Thrown around only to come back to the thrower to be thrown again
Like a soccer ball being passed around teammates
Only for the striker to give it a more powerful kick
Every second i looked
The string got tighter
And as i closed my eyes in thought
I could taste blood in my mouth
What irony
My head laughed
But only the sound of gritting teeth could be heard
As i endured the tugs froms my hrt
Yes this was it
Its the conclusion i came to
Yes indeed
It was jealous
TheSanguinary Mar 2021
It had been a while
Even tho no tears were shed
I could feel it was a wound tt would possibly leave a huge scar
I had no bad intentions when i said it
I had no ill meaning when i did it
I did it out the pure feeling of longing
Out of the innocent feeling of yearning
If i had to mke an apology
I would apologising for loving a woman like a lil girl

It was all love at first
And that love kept growing n spiraling out of control
Everytime my hrt beat ...... i swear i could feel it ...... as if its about to break through the cage
Everytime i put my hand on my chest it was as if im trying to calm a mad dog down
A feeling i loved n hated
Cause Everytime it reminded me of how deep it was
How deep the wound was gonn be
As i kept replaying the worst case scenario in my head
And making more rush decisions
In a sad attempt to protect my heart

In the end it didn't hurt
At least not at the moment
But the longer i sat there the more i could feel the wound opening
As if its about to rip my hrt in 2
I clucthed at my chest
Held on for dear life
The laughter echoed in the empty starry nyt
Reminesce of a broken heart,
No.......broken mind
As i sat there feeling regret from the word protect your heart.
Its that feeling u get wen u r hurt...... funny cause u knew it was gonn hurt bad
TheSanguinary Jan 2021
I need sme water
My body needs more
This thirst,
I hve failed to quench
The more i drink
The thirstier i become
The thirdt only she can quench

I hve been inslaved to my desire
My desire to hve her
My desire to hold her
To devour her
The harder i try to escape
The deeper it feels
As a slave to my desire
An addict to her love

I feel like i hve a pit inside me
One that can keep eating for eternity
Deep and dark
U mightcall it bottomless
Am I tired....?
Yes
Can i stop....?
No
I cant stop eating
My hunger for her keeps growing
with every bite i take
The pit grows deeper
Leaving me starving for more
A hunger even she cant satisfy
Call me gluttony

I thirst for her lips
My body craves to taste em
A revitalising kiss that brings back life to my shrivelled and dry body
I am an addict to her love
A day without her feels like eternity
When im in her,
Arms feels like home
When i see her
My heart jumps from joy
Like playing a song for her
I starve for her body
The slightest and most delicate of touches feels like hve touched heaven
The screams and moans....,
Melodies i can't live without
When she kiss me
When she holds me
And when she takes me in
I pray it is a fantasy
Because if not......
I MAY BE IN LOVE.
TheSanguinary Feb 2020
I wish I could keep you longer
Missing you has left my once linear like mind
Jumbled up like a jigsaw puzzle  
Paranoia starts getting the best of
My heart longs for a longer kiss
I still hear your heart beat in my head
I still feel u breathing on me
I still feel ur touch in my dreams
I just need you by my side longer
Without  you its hard to survive
Missing you is the best and worst feeling imaginable

I wanna look into your eyes longer
I wanna talk to u longer
I wanna hold you longer
I feel like the longer i hold u the saner i become
You are the blink to my eyes
Oh how i long to hold you again

Your voice keep replaying in my head
Like a melody playing again and again
Leave a new maze of complicated feelings
And thoughts through  each play
Please hold me longer

I've become a prisoner in my own head
The longer i stay ther the harder it is to discern reality from fantasy
I just crave for your arms
I just wanna hear your voice
I just wanna see you smile
I just wanna hear u laugh....
Ohh how i wish i could keep you longer
Its sad you have to go
Its excruciating that i know you have to go
I just wanted to lay nxt to u even for a sec longer
TheSanguinary Feb 2020
I want the sky to nolonger blind my eyes
I want the earth to nolonger bury my heart
I want all beings to understand my mind
I want to devour all the gods
TheSanguinary Feb 2020
If i had wings would try flying
Fly away to a place where i have freedom
Fly to a place where i could start over
Because im tired of running
I run away from pain
I run away from responsibility
I run away because I'm afraid
Im afraid of being alone
Im afraid never being able to love
Im afraid that i will keep running
I'm afraid because i have been hurt
I have been hurt because I love
I have been hurt because im in secure
I have been hurt because i trusted
I keep hurting because i cant fly
I keep hurting because i keep running
I stay broken because i keep hurting
Ohh how i wish i had wings
TheSanguinary Oct 2019
I had hope that the sun will shine
I had hope that the dawn will come
I thought i had a chance
brighter days will come they say
I had faith that it was my time
But some how i lost it all in an instant

I never wanted to hurt
"If i had thought my wrds through "
My mind tells me
But once spilt, you cant recollect it
Cant take back wat i said
But it wasnt out of spite
I guess i get to exprience another dusk be4 a dawn

Im tired of being in the dark
Waitn for dawn so i can see wats in my head and wats real.
For my nightmares walk free in the dark
And my head filled with fantasies
I want it to come .....
My mind is falling apart
My heart losing heat
I feel cold
I just cant wait for dawn

Constantly seeking a place to hide
Trying to cover up my mistakes with more mistakes
I keep coming back to my past
Both in mind and matter
A pitch black maze
I'm failing to navigate
Doing this and doing that
A pain that pills and potions can't solve
A hole that alcohol and drugs can't fill
I need a new light
I need dawn.....
I wanna wake up tomorrow
And live a new day
Have u ever wanted something or someone so bad..... but you just cant reach
Next page