Disbelief has captured my Inside

Since my enemy was unrestrained belief
I'm  burning inside and I'm roaming on side

I can not stop to think
What a shame but for me it's a big deal

What for I lost my sleep?

Was it even what they call  a "sin"?

No, I barely felt guilty

My issue is fear

I want isolate myself from stains

I want to rescue myself or maybe I should be killed:)

But I'm too weak for all of this


I can't rescue myself  from painful but sweet memories

Conversely I 'm making them alive

I need to fade
I need to disappear
I need to run away from you
I need not to get infatuated with sweet words
It  can be the biggest sin  to believe you again
Love made me such a fool

Now I am not scared to hurt you  
Because you will get over memory of us easily and  fast

Love  is a sickness

So  we can die from it?

I was fooling myself when tried to find a cure

Today  with the coming of  sanity
her question is answered

Love is shelter
Love is soft wind
Love is peaceful silence
Love is family

Fourishing flower when I'm  near you
                     Now poisoned with ABSENCE
                          Having no idea of what should I do

What a wonderful world  
I can't stop enjoying
Hope it will last forever
Do not interrupt it with making sharp moves
Someone above
Please do not gift me pain
Please you do not **** this peace
I found comfort in this
My soul is singing on my own

Charm wasn't the main magnet
Though pulling exists
They both just made a deal

To attach for each other

Guarantee that claims " I'm always  in need "

Fragile..
Who dared to break it?
When and how?

Broken..
In small pieces
Whose fault?

You must blame yourself only

For not broke it by yourself

I'm grateful. You opened the gates to my life. But I can't let you be left behind.

Being gifted with love feeling to life or to someone
Fragile gift for to keep

Nourish your soul at its best
Don't leave it empty
Wonder and light  closed doors
Through darkness and enemy thoughts


When our bodies attached and we are tied
No time exists
I breath you like air
You exactly what I need


We get precious life lessons
Tears clean our soul  
Lessons meant to be  advantages  
Not it this case
"No " is on repeat for me
No matter what I gain from this pain
No matter which endless life lotteries and luck  I may have
You know why ?
Because i am ready to lose all for to have you by my side
Even myself

What right you had to keep my thoughts  trapped?!

Impeccable  felicity
When you are sent  to paradise
Even happiness can't be flawless  

Is happiness a punishment?
Do we exist only during that moments?

Even happiness can't be flawless  
Not for long
With you
What for ?
It is just a bittersweet teasing

I protect
I wish i could not react
But my heart is being touched
I can't help it

We couldn’t not to attach
We couldn’t not to touch

What words are?
They are only words
Speechless and impersonal

Body moves and lips silence
Screams shamelessly

But eyes - even much more
Steadfast, watchful gaze

I couldn't not to care
I'm submissive

Under your impressive  stare

Panic

Anxiety

Fast breathing

I'm just abandoned child

In my own city

And it will always be so