i wish, i had a lamp,
to brighten my pathway,
on a gloomy night.

i wish, i had a lamp,
to cross a bridge,
on a stormy night.

i wish, i had a lamp,
to be there by your side,
in the hardships of life.

silence will be best for me,
no attachments,
no atonements,
no enchantments,
no blandishments,
no chastisements.

and that is all!

you'll find me worst than thee
worst than you can ever be
don't expect much from me
i won't be here so much free
i am bounded to one tree
where i used to fly with glee.

not in trust,
not in loyalty,
not in honesty,
not in respect.

Nor a leader,
neither in courage.

May be i am Empathetic,
or i am intuitive.

i am creative,
i yearn for long life learning.
i am a good listener,
and i have patience.


But still where do "I" stand?

Shadows still linger in this bright light,
they thought well about where to hide,
broken hopes, shattered dreams, and shallow spirits,
are the foods that gives them strength to ride,
to ride in the shadows where darkness always rise.

Sun is trying to peep through the clouds,
breeze is there, without making a sound;
There is light spreading all around,
but the rainy clouds will start to astound.
This nature spell will keep you bound,
so you better stay firm and not swound.

My heart being pressed,
my soul being crushed,
I am unable to breathe,
I am unable to stand,
what's happening to me!!!

Am I getting lost
or simply out of my mind?
what's rising within me?
a whirlwind of thoughts
or a whirlpool to drown me!!!

everything seems blue,
and i have no clue.
Can someone help me?
Can someone sort it out?
how to get these things out!!!