You don't stop being depressed
You learn living with it

It's a monster sleeping
in te corners of your mind

waiting to wake up
to take over

waiting to conquer the leash
waiting for a moment of weakness

to start eating you up
just to make you feel down again

Keep a hold on that leash
and please  **Don't let go

My mind has wandered to you again
As this pillow welcomes my empty skin I start to think
On this day of love you'll be with her
Your touch, so warm, will be with her
I wish I could hold them
All the times we had
These sleepless nights might mean something then
I was wrong to think that this husk of a human could love you
I know that
But I can't wish you happiness
Only a few dozen night have passed
All those nights that I haven't slept, enveloped by cold
Even so as I lie here freezing, knowing what I need to say
I love you
so much
Good night

My eyes do not gaze upon who you are
they see the person you will become

I do not hear your words that time will forget
I listen to your heart

When my fingers tingle your skin as they move down your body
I do not feal the scars that life as given you
I feal the memories that you gained in that life

The aroma that comes oozing from your body
is not that of sweat but of your soul

As our lips touch and we kiss for the first time
I will forever remember the taste of strawberries
for it takes all 5 senses to know a person
My eyes to see you for who you are and who you'll become
my ears to listen to your beautiful voice
touch to feel when you are cold
my nose to smell the perfume you brought
and my taste to really appreciate the meal you worked hard to make
it takes all 5 senses to know a person

Soft brown hair and that smile
That I haven't seen in a while
The way you think and your disposition
I once thought was a poison
But like most illusions I've seen,
It was just love after all.

You slid your hands in your pockets
Eyes shifting within their sockets
This is the you I cried so many times over
And after all these years, I've only just begun getting sober.

The loss of what could and what might have been,
Is a wound that time can never heal
You've made my life slightly dim
And made pain an emotion I frequently feel

But a day like today,
Is a day I never thought would arrive
You walk towards me in your worst of states,
And my love for you was somehow revived.

I begin to repel the emotion I cursed that I never again would let near
But little did I know , it has always been here.

And as you walk away looking back at me with the softest of eyes
I loved you again, to my surprise.
It was then , I realized—
This is a love that never dies

I explain my metaphors with metaphors
I don't know how else to express
My thoughts that sit in clutter drawers
And leave my mind a mess

If you don't understand my comparison
I'll just say it in a different way
My thoughts still shielded by a garrison
Suppressing things I need to say