The walls knew,
My pillow too,
How much I missed you

I wish my lungs were like the nightsky, with stars that light the whole thing up. I wish they were a mellow meadow, flowers blooming to the top. I wish my lungs were like a forest, vivid and so evergreen, as morning light sweeps in.

But in my chest they found a hole. So black and starved of life, that tears formed in their eyes. So now when I breathe and feel nothing;

I think of nightskies and meadows and forests

Oh, what a courage it takes to live in a world full of cowards

i had hopes as well as aspirations and dreams. but as the river still steadily flowed through the streams. i did nothing to make any come true. now i guess that the time is due. before i had realised, the river was dry and i don’t feel enough anymore to even let myself cry.

When she forgot my name, even the earth had trouble carrying my heavy heart.

Your blood red dress
Twirling in eights

Like an age old contest
My heart still waits

Though not mine to possess
My bloodshot eyes will follow you

Till the night is just a blur
Stuck forever in this slur

the love in him it cries for you
yet you left him bare and blue

so he starts to build his walls
so afraid, that he will not survive another fall

now stones have replaced his loving heart
and you should know, i will never forgive you for that

A toast to life
Sad and confusing but beautiful at last

If people were colors

You would be bright blue

And as a simple grey

I would probably get lost in you

Oh my love even the walls wheep for us, the ghosts cry too

He painted his face each morning
In the most eccentric colors.
To make her forget the dullness
Of the world around her.

-Toska

I am in love with strangers and the unknown

For my moon,

I'm forever sorry that for you
Morning came to soon

I inherited my mom's anger, and my dad's kind of laziness.

And if your heart is a house on fire
A fireman I'll be

I hate them for making me hate myself

It was an ugly face you turned on me
It was a heartbreak in secrecy...

On a sunny afternoon in the midst of june
You finally found the courage to tell me
What you had only told the moon

lately the smoke in my head has been getting cloudier

i’m afraid i can’t keep up either

In the shadows I saw your face
For you would hide away from daylight
To afraid of what the world would say
When they see that you outshine them

Didn't mean for this to happen
Now my heart is feeling heavy

To feel, or not to feel, that’s the question.

And I know you want to be heard
But first find the courage to speak
Speak the words that are dying to leave your lips
Tell me everything you have ever dreamt about
and all the things you want to change
Talk for the rest of eternity,
I don’t care, I’ll listen
And I know, I know you don’t believe in love forever,
but I have faith enough for the both of us

And as the wind still silently sweeps through the trees
And the sun carries on to shine every day
And the seasons keep on changing
And the years keep coming by
I’ve never loved you more

The tide hit her forever unexpected
Loss and love took equal turns
The waves had always been a hard thing to face
Drowning terrifies her but she'll always love the ocean

I wish I could swallow a dictionary and baffle you with the most extraordinary words in existence.

And when the lover of the stars
Found himself on the deepest pit of the ocean
He finally understood that all his life long
He had made the wrong choices

At night as I lie awake I beg
To let me live as many lives
As there are stars in the sky

Sometimes I wish life to be
A little different than it is
I would rather run with stars
Collecting light instead of money
I would rather drown in minds
Exchanging words instead of worry
I would rather smell like life
Inhaling air instead of numbness
I would rather sound like music
Wander together not alone

I threw myself into the deep. Little did I know it would scar me, climbing out.

Clouds often make me wonder if I could suddenly disappear too

I saw a man and his drowning dog walking in the rain
Teardrops on his cheeks and a storm raging in his brain

giving meaning to meaningless things is like drinking poison
it makes you hollow

He's like a sea I can't seem to navigate in
It's wind ever changing cours

A day from you is far to many
My worn out heart is not yet ready
Tonight as I stood shivering on the dock
Tears on my cheeks, with every breath a cold fog
Horns were blaring as you were being taken by the tide
And I wonder if it’s possible to freeze inside

And this time when he screams tears from his throat he lets himself cry too.

I used to compare you to a star
Yet it took long before I realized
How truly right I had been

For you did shine brighter
Than anyone I’d ever seen
But had been burning all along.

A picked flower
Slowly draining
However it could never be
You or me

A change of mind
Withering and closing in
A last attempt of reaching out
For you from me

With petals lost
The flower's long gone now
And I get that
We will never be the same

Yes, I deserve spring.

You could've turned heaven into hell
With just one burning yell

This addiction of mine
It has consumed me for the longest time

Ask the ceiling then,
Ask the ceiling of my blank bedroom
How many times I have whispered your name at night

Always driving past, all those places just flashed by
Now I’m older and regret, rushing through my life

And I was willing to spend eternity’s alone
If that meant that I could have you now
The memory of you would forever be better
Than to have never known you at all.

And then at once as sudden as he had left, he came back, and with him colour.

The smell of pine trees and the rain
Always makes me wonder
If I should have given us another chance
After that magical summer

I'm haunted by a life
Of what if's and could have beens