**** this life of mines
My heart hurts
My soul is aching
The disrespect from people is to much
The constant nagging from people is to much
**** my life
I see so much more
It's taking forever to get there
It's taking forever

I'm sitting here
I'm sitting here in the car in the rain
As I look at the droplets on my window
I look at my tears stream down the window
As I hear the thunder
I hear the hate from others
As the rain stops
My tears stop
As the thunder stop
The hate stops
It's over

I'm so used to getting used
I now offer myself
It's a sad thing
Very depressing
They say they need me
And I'm there
But when I need them
I never recieve an answer
I'm not the pillow you can flip over and use every night
I'm not the toothbrush you use everyday
I'm not the water that you drink
But I am me
And I should not be used like an everyday thing

Discovered pain
They try to rekindle
Two different lifestyles
Suburban and the hood
I never grew up like they did
Always had fancy cars and fancy houses
They paid five grand for there home
I saw them for the first time they were shocked
Oh how I sound stuck up
Oh my birthday is coming up
Oh what are you going to get me
They don't know me
They're using me for what I got
I'm better off without them

Depravation
Deprived of the odds of our stars
Little ***** ****** me and left me
Depravation of the hard time rambling in my old mind
Past coming like the present time
Future dim with nine lines
My ***** ****** me on nylon
The depravation of my mind
Hard to think
Hard to swallow the deprived thoughts
I need some water give me some water
I'm deprived

Who's your father?
John Doe
Who's your father?
The government
Who's your mother?
Borderline personality disorder
What's wrong with your mother?
Sinful thoughts of the abused
Disorders and John Doe

Oh babe! You're so beautiful" he said
Oh babe! Can I get some pictures" he said
Oh babe! Can I use your heart" he did
Oh babe! This is not going to work" he said
Oh babe! I crushed your heart" he did
Oh babe! I still love you" he said
Oh babe! *******" I said