You where my first kiss
My first love
My first life line  
After the convention, when I found out I was happier that I had ever been, you are always there for me.
You where my first song
My first thought this morning
My first wish that came true
A melody that last hours, I wanted you to be here to wake up to, I wished with all my heart.
You where my first dance
My first prom
My first laugh in the face of fear
The first time I had a reason too, well not yet but soon, I'm scared you'll leave but I know it's true and I don't care.

Tuesday the 26th of April
one of the worst days of my life
I woke up and felt the dread of the day
hanging over me like a dark cloud
I cried till my head hurt
and refused food
I ran away from my problems  
and now my *** hurts from all the walking
but the good part came after the throwing up
after the sobbing and screaming
it was when the sky was turning dark
and the stars where coming out
I ended up as a broken mess
at my big brothers house
sobbing and shaking
begging for it to be over
he held me close
and helped me get to the other side of my pain
I was fed and washed
and by the end of the night I was better
I was clean and full
and I got to see my sweetheart
so I thank my big bro
I love you so much

I need to change
I don't know if that means taking a break from you
Or eating more chocolate
I need to be happy
I can't live with the pain in my chest
It needs to stop
I'm sorry

I want
to wright poetry that makes you cry and think about thing that you aren't comfortable with
but I'm not that good
yet

I miss you so bad
My chest hurts everyone I think of you
I broke down and cried and I couldn't stop
It just hurt so bad
And I know I should be grateful because I get to see you
But I can't when the dull ache in my chest won't go away
I ******* hate this
I feel so weak
But I love you