All the sudden
The earth was warm
And it hit me
What scared me the most
Was laying alone
And realizing I never really wanted to die

I found the sunlight
in you after the darkest nights
and see the moonlight
on your face after nightmares.

When you smile at me
my heart melts with love
When you dance at the sea
I can't hide my staring eyes.

The night-blooming jasmines
steal your smell darkly,
Maybe, you are in love
with the morning honey bees.

The clouds make the rain
in your secret streams,
The night sky brings the stars
for your sweet dreams.

My tears make me feel better
when they fall for you!
You know, it does matter
because I still love you!

My heart is clumsy,
It has two left feet,
It has a way of falling,
As waves rise and fall in the ocean.
Useless words spill from my mouth,
Scattering across the floor.
Let me kiss you,
So I can paint all my feelings for you vividly.
1/11/2020

i'm here
at the side
waiting for you
always
because that's all i can do

regrettable regret

                          cemented with regret.

empty threats,
heaving with regret,
heart is vehemently set,
yet my mind seeks reset.


expectations left unmet
tossed the dices, a bet
i am forever in debt
prophecies set

                          cemented with regret.

Write me a song, make me sweet music
Wrapped round my heart so I never lose it
May the words resonate like old friends of mine
The music remind me of sweet summer wine
The song celebrate all the things that we do
Re-create loving memories of you
Will the chords harmonise, strike the right note
Will I want to sing, will it burst from my throat
Like a waterfall tumbling over the ground
Lilting and splashing the music around
A song you gave me when we were together
And when it is written, will you and me be
Singing our love song forever and ever

We drank cider
And filled our faces
With cheesecake that tasted
Almost as tangy as the blood
That fizzed through (and out) of my veins
As a consequence of you.
And I thought to myself,
The sunlight will always be golden
But I will never again smell cigarette smoke
And think of anyone other than you
With your stupid hyperbolic smile
And if I can't see the way eight pm
Looks beneath your lashes
Or the way the summer hours
Turn your hair into auburn fire
Then I may as well bury my eyes
In the soil that hasn't yet
Managed to kiss your feet.