I see you kissing her on the cheek
You said you miss me
You lied
You stay with her / with others
Not me/ Although I wait the most
You scream only and don't even wonder how long would I resist
My life falls apart
You stay with her
You hate me
These are your words
Not mine
I wait for you
You go to her
That is a nice game
Who will win ?
Or resist?
I don't know if I can  truly
You can for sure
Take her back and forget about me
Where are the beautiful moments?
Where did they go?
I am covered in sadness
For how long?
I don't know

For how long I still can
I am destroying myself

Day by Day

Explosions in your head
You scream, you shout.
You drink, you smoke
A message
You stop
You're drunk?!
She came. The devil came.
Is she special?
Just to you. - Never to me.
The devil is not special.
You are evil with others.
But someone being evil with you.
That is where my hate comes from
Still You care.
About her being well.
About others
Not me
Never
I am alone here.
That is what I realize day by day.
I see you are human too.
Because you can suffer
And feel pain
In the end I will be here
Still
With you- But alone.

Set the table
Bring the food
All the menu
Isn't it nice how we sit here?
Isn't it pretty how we are all together for once?
Seems so
But it is not
Missing seats
For members who are not allowed to come
Or won't come because of past mistakes and disagreements
Smile nicely
Help cleaning up
Cheers
Happy Birthday!
Shouldn't it be a nice day?
Well it should
But memories come up all the time
There shouldn't be a moment of piece
You re not allowed to be completely happy
Its a trap like always
Don't be weak
If you manage after all to come home
You can wait for your one
Although he has its priorities
And you will never be part of them
Even its your birthday
Grab a movie
Inspire yourself
Its about you
Not the others
Happy Birthday to yourself

I wish for love
Pure love
Nobody would get hurt
And each of them loves as much as the other
I wish for love
Clean love
Nodbody would be lied to
And each of them is incomplete without the other
I just keep wishing
Its the medicine I need to take.
To live.

He will come after her
All the time
I thought he wouldn't
But I was wrong
I wait for him
He waits for her
Something is definitely not right
He put me in a box with all the other
But did not let me go
Second choices are stronger than first
He knows I stay
Although I cry when I am alone
She will be first
He will run whenever she is not right
Second choices never get the trophy
They just stand there and watch
Thats it
Life