surrounded
by hypocrites
I slowly became poisoned

oh god
please let me go away
far far away

I don't like this place
these people

they stare at me
they want something

they talk to me
they want to drown me

there's no light

crimson frights

let me go away

everyone lies
everyone lies

when you become the liar
suddenly
everyone hates you

burning letters
They're all the same

this is my trauma I'm
so tired of the constant lies
feeling deprived of life

I can't calculate your next response

You're boring me to death

never surprised to see me
well it seems you never see me at all

trying to give you my heart
not my soul

I know how to speak
I can't read love

I only know how to write it

flowers in a crystal vase

I'm filling up empty holes

I'm throwing away all of my secrets

he says
don't ask me for favors

It's impossible to ever tell him

I don't want to be honest

I don't know how to be

I'm tired of living traumatized
of it all

I'm trying to give you
my heart

waiting for your response

Truth is
I feel so heavy
Lost
Depressed
The feeling
Won't leave
Inside my head
I'm going in circles

Truth is
I'm depressed
And
I don't know what to do anymore

You said you loved my eyes my smile at night,
You could look at them forever...
You whispered sweet compliments in my ear,
Though I never believe it.
I love the way you make me feel...
Like for the first time in my life I can breathe,
Feeling you hold me close half asleep,
Makes me think maybe there really is such thing as peace....

she won't stop crying
she says you did her wrong

she saw right through your lies
but she still chose to play along

now she is bruised
she sings an irregular song

now she is empty
because, with all her love, you have gone.