If you knew who I really was would you still love me?
Would you still want to be my friend?
If you knew how I felt everyday would you leave me alone?
Or would you still think I'm OK?
If I let you in my head would you still think I love this life
If you really knew me, would you still call me your friend?
Would you still want me?
If you knew what I want to do would you still leave me alone?
I don't think you would
I think if you knew you would walk away
You would leave.....

Darkness comes in, even on the brightest of days
It was a Friday for me
I remember waking up really happy, like nothing can break me that day
I was wrong
It took about 2 hours for it to find me
And once it did, it held on tight
It never let's me breathe anymore, or even smile, not even for a little while
I used to be able to snap out of it, I used to be able to take control
I see life moving all around me but I can't seem to understand it anymore, I can't seem to grab hold of it anymore
I look in the mirror and I don't know who she is anymore
When the darkness comes in, it takes over
This time is different I don't feel it leaving anytime soon
It's here.

Change your pants, change your shirt, look presentable! That's all I ****** ever hear from you! I'm not good enough and I will never be good enough for you. No I'm not your prissy princess, no I didn't graduate, no I don't have a job. I'm done saying sorry, because I'm not. This is me, so deal with it. You don't have a ***** ***** *** daughter that wears pink and curls her hair with fake fingernails and smile. You have me and if you don't like it, than i won't have to be your daughter, OK! I'm my moms daughter who excepts me for who I am and not what I wear. So you know what? *******! ******* to the way you want me to be! ******* to the way you never had me! And ******* for trying your hardest to change me, it's not going to happen!

I love the moon and the stars
I love the way the night sky looks above me
I love how the stars sparkle like its a coat of diamonds
And how the moon follows you everywhere so you're never really alone
I believe that there's other existence out there
Aliens
I believe in aliens, the green kind
The ones that look just like us
I believe we're not alone
I love the beauty of it all
And I also love how scary it all is
I love how looking up at that big beautiful sparkley sky, I truly believe I am not alone.

Take me, take my body
My skin, my *******, my little ***
Take in my scent
Take in the way I breathe when you enter me
Take in the way it feels when I scratch your back with my claws
Take in my nakedness
Take me, take my body
But don't take my soul
Don't take my love
You can have my body
But you can't have me
You won't want me
You only want my body
And the way it makes you feel
The way it makes you feel when I let you take me!

I want to give up
I want to leave
I want to **** up everything
I want to **** and steal
I want to rip your ******* heart out
I want you to feel everything I do
I want to **** a little too much
I want to rip my ******* heart out
I want to feel nothing
Cold, numb, nothing
I want to get drunk
I want to do drugs
I want to **** up my life
I want to **** up your life
I just want everything to stop

You're happy, really happy
It took .5 seconds for that happiness to disappear and here comes the sadness, the fear, the guilt
You were doing things right, not all the way right, but you were getting there
Now the darkness has come
It barried a hole in your chest and never wants to leave
It talks to you, tells you, this is it, this is what you're here for
She's never leaving, never shutting up. Never
A lot can happen with a phone call, but you never expected this
You never expected to fall apart. Again
"it'll get better" they say
It doesn't feel like it will
I'm just sad all the time Noland it won't ******* go away!