i wasn't aware of the pain you felt.
but if i could have taken it from you,
i'd let it skin me alive.

its throbbing inside my soul
like a tooth ache.

- wanting to love you again

my body has been aching
it feels worse than the flu i had
when i was a 10 year old child
lifeless and limp
food doesn’t taste the same
my face is starting to look different
its settled into my veins now
and i’m not sure i’ll recover

- you're the virus in my body

i'll forever deny that i still love you
and everyone knows thats the
biggest lie i'll ever tell

I  would have traded hearing you tell me
I don’t love you anymore
For every bone in my rib cage to shatter
It would have ached less

i was angry
how did they not care for you
the innocent boy with blonde hair
blue eyes and
crooked teeth
listening to the worst stories my ears have ever heard
the new towns, new homes, new schools
living in fear
at such a young age
you never had a permeant place to call home
until you met me

as i dangled
as i danced
i no longer could use my voice
nor my own breathe
i was your puppet
on a string
and you controlled every
part of me