Oh how I wouldn't mind wasting time
changing and growing by your side
like two grape vines finding purchase on
each other's shoulders

moving sideways against old fences
of trauma and borders

Oh how I wouldn't mind
growing wrinkled and saggy
if only if you were by my side
feeling time pass us by


Oh how I want to hear you laughing
Oh how I want to be there for you
when you feel sad
when you cry
I want to be your anger
when the world seems like a ship
wasting away without an anchor

Oh how I would give certain parts of myself
to move with you
in seaweed like motions
across our ocean floor.
soft sweet sand
dripping away from my shoulders
how the sea meets the land
even if we only dance
alone
On separate shores

Cause a world without you is
a world not worth seeing
too dull
unimportance and perfection glimmering
a shallow surface and purpose

and dangerous
more than any storm or cave
that we could tangle through
the fact that maybe
you might just leave me behind

and I'd have to suffer through
knowing there is a world
with and without
you.

Oh how he kisses *****
Left, right, and center
How he grovels on his knees and prays to his
Boss
Teacher
Professor
Instructor
Stranger
But the thing about kissing *** is
it leaves
**** on your lips
The Bull kind of ****:
Creating brown smeared smiles
fake and full of lies
With the sprinkling of
frenzied flies.

A bigger paycheck, but a dead *** *** inside
Somebody empty and unsatisfied
Needing confirmation from a system
That they are loved
From a higher power from above

And only that is what he will believe
That is what he’ll believe before he believes in me