Sarah

Mar 2018

Kim

We're almost touching.
we were walking side by side,
you're talking about cabs in your hometown.
I can feel the gravity of your hand, calling my fingers
whispering "it's alright."

We're touching but not quite.
you held my shoulder to protect me from the passing cars.
and for the first time in a long while, I felt so fragile.
In this world where I find it hard even to breathe,
you believed me.

I almost said it.
All I need is one ounce of strength to tell you every single thing that I have ever felt about you.

I want to find home in your collarbones.
Would you be kind enough to let a stranger in?
I want to seep in your being because I'm cold.
The world is harsh and my cracks are aching.

Almost.

Please don't ever become a stranger,
whose laugh I can recognize anywhere.

#love #anxiety

Sarah Mar 2018

Things I never said

"i had a dream about u last night,
kinda ****** me up"
He said

you ****** me up and i dream
about you every night
"oh."

#dreams #you #broke #me #and #now #dream #of

Sarah Mar 2018

S&S I miss the old you and me

Movie theatres
Your arms around me at them all
Eating food in the food court at the mall
Should have known something was up when you’d never call
When you’re up texting me
Asleep I’d never fall

Nowadays we never talk we hit a wall
Wish I knew how you felt about it all

Used to wear your t-shirt and all your sweaters
Said it made you kinda mad cause I wore it better
Watching horror movies on your bed
I guess you never knew you were ******* with my head

This boy he started texting me all the time
Haven’t talked to him in a year or the start of 9th
Said he’s had a thing for me
Thought that was cool
But I didn’t really care
I was a fool,
For you
And the things you do
I mean the things you did
The things I never said
But the things you did
Like how you’d rather die than date me
Love me or hate me,
I wish we still talked
I miss laughing the way I did around you
I annoy you, All I want is attention.
Yeah, from you.
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It’s been 6 months
That boy who started talking to me
He hurt me.
I deserved better, like you said,
I wish you still talked to me.
I’ve been needing someone to make me laugh the way you did.
You decided to side with the one who hurt me.
I don’t know I just kinda miss you.

I just really miss the old you

#missyou #broke #broken #laughing

Mar 2018

reilly

some people are so desperate to show you the galaxies within them, they rip themselves apart to show you their stars

I’ve been seeping constellations for you-
For you to see the colors within me
But i can see the milky way on my bathroom sink
And I’m bleeding all over the broken bottles you left last saturday
And on the empty pill bottles I was prescribed to forget you

When you kissed me last you told me I tasted like a stranger
Even though I’ve showed you every galaxy I hide inside me
All my stars and the spaces in between them
You used to tell me you could see the sky in my eyes
But last time I heard you haven’t checked the weather in months

The stars are sleeping in my veins now,
I started saving them from my bedroom floor
But i can still feel you on my fingertips
I still think of you every time I look at the sky

I’ve been kissing strangers to forget the taste of your lips
But i feel you in the back of my throat every time I smile
I feel you in my voice when someone asks me about my plans for the future
Because my entire life I was told one day I will find my better half
And you always told me you were mine
But who are you to tell me I need someone else to feel whole?

#stars #love #broken #galaxies #self #harm #whole #uplifting

Sarah Mar 2018

Troubled

Troubled guy
Troubled girl
He tells her she means the world

Troubled girl
Troubled guy
He tends to only visit me at night

Remember walking down a bike path late, moon to my right
The memories burned in the back of my mind
With the match you and I, used to get high
I inhale and choke on the thought of forever
Even if compared to all the other guys, you’ve loved me better

Remember laying on a playground
You and I, And I on you
Doing things we shouldn’t do
If all our love, and plans fall through
I’ll remember that night and the taste of you

Remember sitting on that roof
Came down crashing hard from a high
Came down crashing hard from a lie
I won't forgive, I’ll just forget
So we’ll lay here and talk about the stars
and you’ll ask if that bright one is mars
I’ll mask the pain present in my heart
And I’ll smile for you my love
I’ll try not to fall apart
I believe love is something you have to shape and create
We are art

With betrayal you painted my heart
How many times did you get her high?
How late did you stay up talking to her at night?
*******, I’m moving on, you never could have ****** me right

I wish that I could burn every ******* memory along with the sweater and shirt you gave me
*******, I’m moving on, you never could have ****** me right

I wish the memories would fade like your smoke from my lungs my love
I wish the memories would fade like the highs from all of your drugs
*******, I’m moving on, you never could have ****** me right
*******, I’m moving on, you never could have ****** me right

You're still asking for your sweater back

#broken #fuckyou #movingon #art

Sarah Mar 2018

Mind over matter

How am I supposed to have mind over matter
When I have no idea what the matter was with just me?

Feels like I’m drowning,
in an ocean as deep as my thoughts
since you hurt me,
and my feet are tied to the weight of my mind.

She was your sun
I was your moon
Both beautiful and didn’t deserve what you do

I hate you.

I never mattered

#mind #over #matter

Sarah Mar 2018

Blackhole

You were a black hole disguised as a new found world
A world able to hold every piece of life I had left
A world worth all of my time
Instead you absorbed all of the sanity left in my mind
Took my life for granted
Took my life for granted
Took my life for granted

#blackhole #you #broken

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