I am now ready,
Prepared to fight
Willing to sacrifice my life
Just to protect you, my love

We were once strangers,
turned into friends
then we became lovers,
but now, you're just a stranger,
with all my hidden secrets.
and right now,
you're the person
I wished
I haven't met.

I loved you without intricacy.
I loved you without reservations.
I loved you from your flesh, to your heart.
I just loved you for who you are.
I just loved you,
Without expectations
Without hesitations.
Without anything.
And with all honesty, I thought that was more than enough.
But love wasn't enough,
You needed my trust,
You needed my commitment,
And I failed in that aspect.
I know it's my fault,
And everytime I remember your departure in my life,
It sends a wave of truth and pain
That I had no one to blame
And it was my fault for not being enough.
You made me realize that
I wasn't enough.
I am not enough.
I will never be enough.

There wasn't a day
I have not thought of you,
Suicide.

To be honest, i'm not okay
But i'm too afraid to say
Because you might not stay

Those 3 words, "i'm not okay"
Why is it so hard to say?
Can't I just be honest,  
And expect you to stay?

Your feelings are like the flowers that you gave me. Fragrant and ethereal,

But wilts, but wilted.

And just like your love, it was only momentary.

A recipe on how to make a person fall in love with:

1 1/2 cups (355 ml) of DEVOTION
1 package (2 1/4 teaspoons) of AFFECTION
3 3/4 cups (490 g) of PATIENCE
2 Tbsp of OPEN-MINDEDNESS
2 teaspoons of SWEETNESS
3 cups of TRUST
2 Tbsp of COMPASSION
1 teaspoon of WARMTH
4 Tbsp of RESPECT
And an infinite amount of LOVE

In a hidden room where darkness resides, and colors were only of black, two people filled with tension were left behind.

Awareness was there, but the urge was stronger. And despite the lack of illumination, nothing hindered the feeling of sensuality. Perhaps, curiousity is the reason. Nevertheless, satisfying their desire was the only thing that mattered.

Their body spoke a tongue no one but only them could decipher. They were laced with the fragrance of greed. Having one objective, to infuse a blazing passion into every part of their bodies. Electricity was felt in every touch. A gentle caress drove them mad.

He made a move that made her tense. She made a move that made him restless. Their bodies danced in synchronization. A majestic performance, unseen by the world and concealed with pretentiousness.

Euphoria echoed the room. Ecstasy rushed through.

Attraction. Addiction. Temptation. Rhyming words. Different spellings. Yet, those were the same sentiment they shared.

Bright colors now surrounds the room, even so, nothing can hamper what they feel.

Trapped in a lustful spell.

It was a mistake they were willing to do over and over again.

You said you'd never leave
So I introduced my real personality

But when you knew,
You suddenly abandoned me.

I'll never break your heart
I'll always be by your side
Just trust me, just give me your heart
Just give me your all, and I'll guve you mine

They say that promises are meant to be broken
But no, i'll never break mine
I'll keep what I said so just stay by my side

delighted
delighte
delight
deligh
delig
deli
del
de
d
de
dep
depr­
depre
depres
depress
depresse
depressed

Why don't we try to be that person we claim we deserve?

Sunrise
Rice
Suffice
Breakfast
Held back
Emotions
Let's break up

I'm out of ideas
I just want to sleep forever.

All I needed was
Some affection
Some love
And some attention
But you failed to give me that.

There’s nothing more painful than holding unto something so valuable, only to be taken away from me in a blink of an eye.

Escaping is
Drowning yourself
with depressing music
and suicidal thoughts

Sitting at midnight
In front of a laptop
While wiping the tears
And weeping in silence

I looked at our photos
We were so happy before.
Before was the time that
I wanted to get over.
The past is still haunting me,
Moments of you and me,
I still cannot fathom
You being with someone else.

It's so hard to stand up when people around you are trying to knock you down.

How do I build myself up again?
When the person who built me
Smashed me into pieces
And scattered those pieces away?

I've changed,
I know.
I'm doing everything not to.
But it's just not effective.
How can I build myself again?

Just blank.
Blank
blank
bLanK
BlaNk
That's how my mind was
Ever since you left.

It was just a mere attraction
But ended up with obsession
In constant hesitation
Is this love or infatuation?
What will be the continuation
Of our love story full of contradiction?

The words you said
Pierced through my heart
It is true what they say
You cannot take back what you just have said.

The rose has withered,
Its petals started to fall out of its core
The thorny vine that ******,
Will no longer do so,
Oh life, where is it!
Bring it back, bring it back!

Why does the world had to witness its beauty
If it’s going to wilt in the end?

Judge me all you want,
Hate me all you want,
But you can never erase the fact,
That you're thinking of my life.

What happened to us?
A question I've always asked.
Even though I know the answer,
I pretend that I don't
It still hurts a lot
Knowing you're not here
What happened to us?
Will always be a question
I knew the answer
But never wanted to hear

Out of 7 billion people in this world
I liked the one
I can't have.

From that very moment, I just wanted to die
However, I saw your smile
It radiated through my lonely heart.
I was warmed, I was delighted
You became my reason to live,
My child.

What if one day, you wake up, realizing how much of an idiot you are for letting someone fool you yet you're still so head-over-heels towards that person.

Are vices the answer?
No.

Would it solve your problems?
No.

Would it fix yourself?
No.

Would it make your situation better?
No.

So why do you still continue?

Because it makes me forget.

I was struck by the light,
I wished that someone comes
At that moment, I was hoping, I was praying
I was grasping at straws that somebody comes.
I waited, and waited, and waited.
I lost track of time,
Days, months and years have passed.
But I prayed and waited.
Then that day came
When I grew tired of waiting,
I stood up, prepared to leave
Ready to start a whole new beginning
Someone grabbed my hand and told me,
"where are you going, you're leaving what you've been waiting for all this time?"
At the moment, I realized
Some things are really worth the wait.

I learned to appreciate myself
When you told me
I'm not good enough for you,
Well *******
I'm too good for you

I know you like me
And you know I like you too.
But we chose to ignore,
It's not accepted, it's not allowed.
Maybe the timing's just off,
Or maybe it's because of those judgemental people.
It's not accepted, it's not allowed. We're both the same,
This relationship is not practical.

I'm suffering
You just don't know at all
I'm afraid to show it
You might just leave me at the hall
Finally had the courage to open up
You just left me to cope up with everything
I'm doing my best to overcome this
Because you said this is all delusions,
You told me "this is all in your head"

I am in sorrow
In the middle of grieving
The tears are constanly flowing
My heart is sinking

My brain lost its function
Internal organs? I cleary lost thought
How can this be?
Why didn't you choose me?

I'm losing the will to live
It's better to die
You are mt oxygen, my soul
It's better to die if you decline me

Too afraid to admit
I am a coward and this is cowardice
Became a prisoner of overthinking
Trying to escape this cell that i've lived in

As I walked the path,
The memories flashbacked,
Moments of you and me, us and them
Times when we were still liberated and young
Reminiscing all of them,
Ahh, I miss my youth
Those days were now gone

Writing kept me sane.

What do I do now when there's nothing worth sharing—no writing left in me anymore?

Yes, i'm aware that i'm being stupid
Yes, i'm aware that she's not gonna love me back.
Yes, i'm aware that i'm indulging myself in fantasies with her.
Yes, i'm aware that she's taking advantage of my vulnerability.

Yes, i'm aware, you don't need to tell me,
I don't care.
Because that's how I love.

You smile, and my whole world falls apart
You laugh, and my knees began to tremble
You make my heart shake, you make my brain vague
It is you who ruins my system

Your kisses electrified all the dying pieces I had within.

Your touch magnified all the scars in my heart.

Your laughs resonated through my soul.

Your tears rippled through my skin.

Every part of you are puzzle pieces that I've been finding for so long.

You were once my sun and moon
You were once my day and night
You were once my sweet dreams
You were  once my reality

Now tell me,
How do I unlove you,
When you became my everything?